还在序幕

总觉得，是时候继续写我的故事了。可是，我性格过于内向，做了MBTI后的结果是26题中，23题的答案表示我是I。因此，要我主动，是绝对不可能的。所以，我决定不再选择避开。希望能在顺其自然的同时，找到新的方向。
顺便一提，我刚知道原来我的博客是有人读的。:O不过他好像没有散播任何谣言。o.O可能是因为日语不够好吧。

Google's being random

OK, today Kaidi somehow went to my blog. So, I got home and typed "ng chow hui" into google. Surprisingly, the random post about Chow Hui's rumoured girlfriend (I think he's single btw) was the first result, then followed by Chow Hui's name on the school's namelists. Well, I thought that my blog has no reason to be ranked more useful than the school's website, but somehow it became the first one. Hence, whoever that types Chow Hui on Google would be linked to my blog. :O Looks like the secretive stuff which I write here aren't that safe anymore. Of course, it wouldn't be fun without any forms of risk. Thus, I'll have to fill in more posts like this one! So if you are an avid reader of this blog like No One, looks forward for more interesting posts.

用中文试试

　　见到双（单）文化课程的同学们的华语水平，我实在是望尘莫及。若俺想像拥有他们那样的词汇，还必须下功夫不可。因此，为了维持我已经烂透的华语水平，我这次决定用中文来继续讲我的故事。

　　不知为何，我们又回到了像开学那时互相避开的校园生活。不过这样也好，毕竟我还是有点不想和任何人扯上关系。随着时光渐渐的流去，她的映像也逐渐从我的脑海中消失，令我似乎有种如释重负的感觉。不过，就当我认为自己重获自由后，我发现，我错了。在学校里偶然遇见她的时候，一见到她向我打招呼，她的映像又在我脑海中浮现了。好像复习似的。再次读一遍那些忘了的知识的时候的那种“哦，是这么一回事”的感觉。的确，她打招呼的方式与普通人截然不同。即使对于每个人都是那样，但就因为那种特别，甚至怪异，的打招呼方式，使她在我的心目中变得特别。

　　爱情，这个难以摸索的感情。即使想靠亲身体验来理解、追求爱情的真理，最后可能还是一知半解。不过，我还是想继续写我的故事。因为如果不试一试，就没有理解的可能。

Blogging too much

I'm here again, having no idea of how many posts I would hit this year. Well, shows that J1 is free compared to Sec 4 (I feel so anyway). OK, continue blogging. There isn't really anything to talk about today beside the random math test. Well, I feel kinda stupid today. Despite having the intelligence to find answers with pen and paper, there wasn't enough time to allow us to do so. Thus, it ended up as a test which tests us on how skillful we are at pressing our GC. My GC didn't show me the last intercept!!! =.= Thus, we were all complaining about how noob GC is for leaving a gap in my equation of a eclipse. In the end, I kinda screwed up the test. Luckily, I didn't prepare like some of my classmates. Speaking of which, I need to practise pressing my GC today so that I do not screw up my Lecture test on Friday. Hence, I am greatly looking forward to calculus because the GC doesn't help with calculus.

Something wrong

Today feels like a bad day. Well, after doing graph transformations for some time, I've totally forgot about the fundamentals of solving the roots of a polynomial using the intersections between 2 graphs. Also, I sprained my ankle and felt very tired for the whole afternoon after the SMTP run, which isn't usually the case. Well, at least it didn't get any worse.

Well, on the way home I was humming to myself again. This time, "I'll be the one" from Hikaru no Go. Then, I realised that this song actually had meaningful lyrics, as compared to most of the other Anime OP/EDs which I've heard. Since I don't feel like working nor sleep early at the same time, I should probably provide a translation here.

この瞳　君の目に
This pupil, in your eye.
映る　どんなものも
Shows anything
見極めて見せるよ　真実を
See through the truth and show me

僕たちは　この時代に
We, in this time
どれだけの夢抱えて
What kind of dream do we hold
涙して　迷いながら
Lost and crying
それに賭けてみてるの
We bet on it

僕はそれでも人に引け取らぬような
Even if so, I would yield to no one
決め手　見つけ　夢を　手にするだろう
If the decisive factor is found, the dream would be achieved

この瞳　君の目に
This pupil, in your eye
映る　どんなものも
Shows anything
見極めて見せるよ　真実だけ
See through it and show me the through only

たとえ　現実が
The reality
気づく　埋もれそうでも
Even if realised, would be hidden
こんな　場所で終わる
But if one were to give up here
僕じゃない
He would not be me

戦いに　挑んでみて
Trying to face the challenges
これほどに強気でいる
With such strength
僕だけど　今愛する　愛すべき君がいる
You, the one that I love and should love is there

そんな　君に僕　は　何　ができるだろう
Thinking about what I can do for you
でもね　いつも　わがまま言うばかり
But I always talk selfishly

よそ見　しないでいて
Please don't look aside
僕の　事だけ見て
And look at me
いつでも痛いから
It's always sorrowful
愛しい　人で
Because of you, the one I love
会えた　喜びが
The happiness when we met
切なさに変わるの
Changes into sorrow
「じゃあね」　と手を振った　瞬間に
The moment we wave and say goodbye

君の　瞳に映る
Reflected in your eye
人が　僕であると
The person, that's me
信じていてもいい
Can I believe it?
離れてる　日も
Even on the day we part

この瞳　君の目に
This pupil in your eye
映る　景色たちが
The scenery reflected inside
同じ　であるように　そう願ってる
Hoping that they would be the same
永遠　なんてもの
Eternity
ないかもしれないよ
Might not exist
だけど　今は二人
But now, as two
で歩こう
We shall walk together

Note that the part with love refer to friendship love. Well, it's kinda late that I've only just realised the deep meaning of this OP 4 years after watching Hikaru no Go. This can probably be 2 weeks of self-entertainment.

Bored

Somehow I'm bored now. I do have work left to do, but I don't feel like doing them. At the same time, I don't feel like watching anime and I'm controlling my desire to touch DotA. There isn't really anything to talk about here I think. (Well, I need to control my eagerness to spread gossip around 'cos it isn't good to spoil people's reputation.) Maybe I should talk about the recent news of the top scorer. Well, she's brilliant indeed, but I think there's a deeper meaning to life. This may probably be due to jealousy, but personally, I think her life is just SAD. I've been thinking about it really. My parents want me to aim for the top, but both of them knows more importantly, that it's a lot more important to know what you want to do in the future. I've seen too many examples of brillant people end up getting a similar job to those who weren't as good as them. However, the sad truth is that I'm also not sure about what I would like to do, but the good thing is that I do have a idea of it, just that I've not made a clear choice. OK, I think I shouldn't say too much as I still have to cope with reality.

Oh BTW, I should probably state here that anyone with a little foundation in Jap and a decent IQ would probably know who I'm referring to in those posts :)

今週のこと

　今週の＿曜日のことだ。＿で彼女を見た。手を振ろうか。少し迷ったが、自分はこの話を続けたいことを知っていた。それで、深呼吸して、手を振った。そして、僕たちは話をし始めた。
　「これからの＿＿＿の＿で降りる？」と僕は失望に思った。
　まあ、そうだね。彼女はその辺に住んだ。トピックはなんとなく勉強だった。ちょっとつまらなかったが、これは大事なことかもしれない。彼女に僕は天才ではないことを教えたのだ。確かに、僕は頭よさそうだが、作文は立派にかけない。去年、言語の科目のせいで、僕の平均点はあまりよくなかった。少なくとも、一番トップの学生たちと比べれば、引け目だ。他のトピックについて話できる前に、もう彼女が降りる時間だ。同じ時間に（ここは9字を省く）、今度は初めてこんな時に会ったのだ。うれしかった。そして、また会うことを楽しみにしてた。
　翌日、（ここは21字を省く）。この話は面白くなる！僕も興奮してる。