假期

离上次写博克有几个月了。由于繁忙的生活，这个地方常从我的脑海中消失。今年并不是很忙的一年，但压力却很大，尤其是两个O水准考试。虽然只是两个，且我也有充足的时间准备，但它们给我的压力可使异常的大。与校内的成绩相比，这可是来得重要，可是校长却整天在校内搞一些乱七八糟的东西，使得我们无法静下心来学习。回想起这四年度过的时光，我不得不痛恨这种精英教育。低年级时，繁忙的生活，的确让我明白了许多道理。做了那么多，得到了那么多，但许多都不是我想要的，都是一些帮助自己吹牛的证书罢了。可是，学校里仍然还有许多这样的人，怀着贪婪的心态，去把握眼前的一切。只懂得为自己的成就感到骄傲，而最后变得目中无人，忘记了“谦虚”。这种人也是我最恨的。可惜学校里这样的人太多，都聚集在一个班里，使得一个普通学生为了面对同学之间的压力，不得不与他人竞争，否则将感到自卑。此外，竞争者多，则朋友少，生活变得寂寞、单调。记得上次凤凰卫视播着关于加藤智大在秋叶原的伤人事件，体现出了一个精英学校里的种种问题。一步不慎，满盘皆输，每个人都必须稳健的踏下下一步。这或许是在亚洲的学历社会中的共同问题。想寻求改变，就必须先爬到顶峰，而不竞争是不行的，也足以说明为什么两个考试能给我这么大的压力。

Sec 4 and onwards

奥化课开始了，没有我想象得轻松，只是因刚开始而正在复习以前学过的东西罢了。今年上奥数班也比以往辛苦，学的东西都没那么容易理解，周末还得复习。快乐的度过了一个学段，到了忙碌的时候。这一学段的主要目标就是考好奥数，毕竟是花了我不少精力的东西啊。校方见到多数学生下午无所事事，想尽办法把我们的课程表堆得满满的，对非游手好闲者的我，实在是天大的不公，这些辅助课程并无太大帮助，没有让我对科研有更深刻的了解，或培养我对科学的兴趣，而且还妨碍我学习自己喜欢的东西。校长也没有发现，我们现在各个方面比不过其他学校，就是应为应付校内的压力就已经不容易的，如果还需要为其他事情感到烦恼，估计多数人早已崩溃。自己学这么多东西，其实也只是因为有好胜的心态，不认同别人比我强。在人生的道路上走了这么久，终于又到了另一个难关，找到了新的挑战。心里感到兴奋，又烦恼，只知道在渡过这一个难关后，更艰险的还在后头等待着我。该信服道教了，“无为而制”无疑在某些情况下是最好的解决方法。

Reviving this place

Just felt like showing some nice use of language, and of course it's because it's posted by our well-liked teacher Mr Tan Chibi (aka 陈矮人老师 or チビタン).



And some other thing which niaos KFC on facebook. Putting stuff like this in JPG prevents people from googling them out.


But just to niao the writer, his "萃" and KFC's "恺" is typed wrongly.

Tired of life

4 years in junior high, 3 years of repetition, feeling so tired of the never-ending work that comes. 1 thing is that they've got nothing to do with our results, for tests test people on whether they are exam smart, rather than whether they study. The undeniable facts in the sciences does give a reason to do those homework as they help remember the facts better, but for humanities and languages? No way. Why should we even do case studies of outdated cases when there are so much stuff on the newspapers for us to read? Plus, the teacher didn't even prepare her own resources, and simply provided a link to another teacher's online learning portal. Nevertheless, Chinese is still the most boring subject, there are so much stuff that are worth doing in my life that can improve my Chinese but MOE and the Chinese teachers just chose to waste our class time by telling us to do 理解问答，应用文 and 作文, all of which have retarded marking schemes that never tests on a student's Chinese standards. Furthermore, the government even came to a conclusion that students cannot learn Chinese properly because "CHINESE IS TAUGHT IN CHINESE"! What a joke. If we were to get some of 金庸's books and talk about every bit in detail, like what we did for English literature, I am quite sure that no one would be bored of Chinese anymore. So in the end it simply boils down to MOE's stupidity. Even IP schools that supposedly escaped the control of MOE that reflected nothing good but stupidity, there is still Chinese O Levels, which getting an A at would not help the slightest bit in simply giving us some hope at answering one question at the interview conducted by Peking University. When Singaporeans blame their low standard in languages on education, it just ends up with the government assuming about what went wrong and adding more stupid policies that make Singapore's language education more stupid, and probably one of the reasons why I hate Singapore so much. These crap homework that I am doing is just inhibiting me from doing other stuff, like MOP. Loving school so much more than e-learning, when I am already hating school so much.

Reincarnation

Posting during Geog lesson now because the teacher didn't come and I need something to kill time. Well, I really can't believe that my grades are becoming more extreme (languages are still fine, but the difference in humanities and sciences are showing). I was happy for some time for being the top few in class for Bio and Chem, but after I did the Geog and Physics test, I wasn't even slightly confident that I would not fail. LaLa~ Another weekend of slacking I suppose, after all the tests, and retrain my DotA skills a bit after failing so much, and figuring out the main problem about why I failed. Main thing that I wasn't happy about was that I was despised by JLoh. I just don't see why I am not given a chance to host any Jap students despite my Jap results topping the whole school every year. Sec 4 life has been rather boring until now, because of me. I can't really find something that can continue entertaining me for now. Songs? Books? Does that make a person's life more interesting? Or the super patriotic stuff on all the NCC ppl's blogs? Uh, personally I think achievements and superiority are the foundations of my life, but the constant failing last year somehow hit me hard. I can't ensure that my life would be smooth this year, like all the even years that I have gone through, which were all so fruitful. People has came up with different definitions to how life should be lead, but in the end, it's just another game which we see in computers. Level up, and fight your way through, or you would become inferior and be the slave of others. However, at the rate at which I am going at, it would be rather unlikely that I would be able to outperform others, because there are just so many things that I wouldn't want to self-study because they seem so lame. I've endured through 3 weeks of 20+ ChengYu, 20+ English terms and 2-4 pages of Wolf and Spice per day during the holidays, but none of them can keep me studying other than Math. Aiming higher in life, is it something wrong? Well, I think that there are somethings that I should not be committing to, but although these stuff may seem useless because I can only make one choice of University, at least I could choose if I continue the endless workload which I am subjected to, which would be a lot better than those who got chosen. Quite surprised at how I am still able to maintain my optimism after so much futile efforts, but I don't think I would be able to endure anymore major ones to come. Wishing that I would no longer feel that something is lacking.

从北京而归

离上次写博客至少有一个半月了。没办法，北京不能使用Blogger，就连我的作业也是用Wordpress写的。为了从BSC的朋友们得到一些照片，我不得不注册一个Facebook的帐号，但搞了半个小时后还是没搞清它到底有多少功能。每次一出国，就会感到自己的无知，原来世界是那么的大，有无穷的东西等着我去摸索。生在福中，似乎有一种浪费生命的感觉，消耗着地球上的资源。两个月前，我的想法则完全不同，估计是由于看动漫看得过多而造成的。成就与幸福这两者就不能合为一体吗？在期待着幸福的同时，我发现我真正要的是成就。尽管我多么的想放弃它，最后仍紧握着不松手。但随心所欲是否是正确的呢？

Shanghai Trip

It's officially called a study trip, but not many people actually had such a positive attitude towards solving all the math problems. The only work we had was to translate the question sheet and answer key into English so that the teachers can use them to teach in the future. Besides that, I got 2 Junior High Math Olympiad books1 Jap dictionary (this one own the crap out of all Eng-Jap dictionaries, XP to all suckers who uses Eng-Jap dictionaries)

1 Learn-to-draw-anime-charactersand 1 on 围棋, all of which anyone can hardly find in Singapore. I can't find anything else besides novels and novels and super-chim math taught beyond university in Singapore. In other words, Singapore bookstores really lack variety. However, I couldn't think of anything else to buy besides books, the games didn't really interest me, and I didn't have a chance to go to 电子城 where I could get some electronic devices and computer games, which I think all of us wanted to buy. Well, it doesn't really matter I suppose, I am going to 北京 soon, where I am more familiar with and have a lot more free time to go around and buy stuff, although there might not be many thing that interest me. I am really feeling tired of Singapore right now, because of so many things to care about when I come back, compared to studying Math in 上海. Next year is really coming in no time, and it would be time for hardcore mugging.

It's finally the holidays

It's good that I don't have to be emo anymore, enduring all the pains of scoring C6 for exams and not being shortlisted for stuff. For the time being, I can say that I am carefree, which is in my opinion the highest level which people can achieve in life. I am not saying that working hard is a bad thing, but we always have to remember what we are working for, and not because our ancestors say that we have to work hard. I am rather pleased with myself for cutting down on gaming time, and spending more time to improve on my linguistic skills which really takes time because there is a limit to how much we can remember each day. The only deadline which I have to meet is to improve on my tone quality by Wednesday so that Mononoke would sound better, as it is the only one in which tone quality is of higher priority. Leaving for 上海 then 北京 soon, and I am looking forward to these trips, so much more than going to USA like all my other schoolmates, probably because I am not much affected by westernization I suppose. Hoping to post some pictures soon.

No mood to study

I am messing with my Windows Live Writer right now, finding out how convenient this thing is. The only test which I have to study for is Bio on Thurs. I may be looking through the answer schemes for the IJ comprehension because there are some questions which I found it difficult to express what I am thinking, probably due to the lack of vocabulary. Well, I think part of the blame goes to my primary school teachers, for not teaching some of the commonly used expressions and the grammar associated with them. I do agree that I have mastered the basic grammar well, but too well, to the extent that not even the teachers would care about spotting those errors because there are simply too many scripts to mark and they have finish one script in like 2-3 min I suppose. Look, my class has 34 people. If Longang takes 5 min for one script, he won’t finish marking while his midnight oil last. 12 scripts takes an hour, 34 scripts takes 2 hours and 50min. 3 of such classes would take about one day of work. After adding comprehension would be enough to kill him. Hence, I really need some vocabulary to replace all the weird expressions that I have. Chinese test has a lame marking scheme, which perfectly explains why I shouldn’t care about studying. I have inferential skills that are much stronger than the teacher I suppose, and what seems obvious to me doesn’t seem obvious to the teachers. Math is a subject where I apply my knowledge for the higher paper. So the only one left is Bio. I do think that I can try Caleb’s technique of spamming twice the number of lines given and have a cross with every tick. A full mark is given anyway (although the concept is wrong), and I feel that the teachers should really give discredit to these kind of stuff. But since it’s required of an examination, I think I’ll just follow suit. There are 4 more topics left for me to revise, and I think I can go through one topic thoroughly each day until then.

I think I am rather screwed

It's been a week since exams started, and I feel really screwed, mainly because most of the papers are essay-based and I am not good at writing, in any language. Not saying that I couldn't do it, but I only found the key to writing descriptive essay 2 years ago, and got 21 marks for that. However, I couldn't get enough practice before we moved on to exposition. Well, it took me sometime to get used to it too, but what I mainly used in the past was assumed scenarios. It's is rather retarded to quote evidence for every bit of thing you write, and people end up faking statistics during the test. Well, other than that, I got a very fussy Chinese teacher this year, which picks every minor detail in the question regardless of whether it's compre or compo or ACE. I really don't see the point of writing so many meaningless sentences just to DESCRIBE the question again, like what The-SMTP-Thermal-Physics teacher asks us to do. Hence, I have decided to ignore all these requirements of tests since mid-year, to distinguish myself from "examinees". I am still somewhat at risk of not getting 2.0 for this year although I already have 4 A1s. Along with the A2s that I am getting, it is still somewhat difficult just to get a B3 for the subjects which I am really screwed at - English and IH. Good thing is that next week would be rather smooth as there are no essay-based exams anymore. I won't mind losing to people in my class anyway. The same thing happened in Sec 1, when many "examinees" got a better MSG than me, and I shouldn't care about losing another time, especially when this years MSG does bring about any benefits. Progress, has been my goal since the beginning of the year, and the difference would show in the future. Probably got affected by the people around me :). Well, good luck to you too for your exams.