Careful till I am careless

This is the 2nd post this week. But, OMG! I left my homework file in SALT Centre! OK, the story was like this:

Just beginning to learn to do my homework in SALT Centre during full band, I brought my file in to the main hall of the SALT Centre band room to make full use of my time. However, the JC liked to practise after us, and this Friday, the cursed day when my classroom had the aircon left on and me leaving my homework file in SALT Centre, was no exception. So it neared 5 o'clock, and I had to take my measurements for the New blazer. The JC was moving in at that time, while I was being very careful about not missing any of the 7 things and counting which I am bringing into the band room: 1. Mouthpiece 2. Score 3. Pencil & Notebook 4. Water bottle 5. Metro-tuner 6. Pencil case 7. Homework File. Then I went down to take my measurements with YaoChong looking after my stuff, which he did rather well. Then the tailor hadn't came yet so we went back up for 10 min sectionals. So at 5.45, everything was done and I was packing up. Making sure that I had 7 things again and thinking that there is no way of losing anything, I packed by bag. BUT! Due to my habit of thinking that the pencil box is the last item, I LEFT MY HOMEWORK FILE THERE! I was thinking why it was so easy to put my pencil case into my bag then, but didn't suspect anything. Probably because all the music drowned my paranoia and of course partly due to my ****phobia... No, that day must be cursed. I bet that Friday the thirteenth has got some pronunciation relation ship with the thirtieth, and so does the fortune. Go check wikipedia, there's gonna be 3 more Fridays falling on the 13th! I better be less careful.

Incase you are wondering how many lessons I can survive through without my homework file, I would say probably half of them, because I won't be getting the neutralizing luck which I got on the Friday of the first week.

Venting my anger again

Part of the internet's job is to give people room for them to vent their anger. Despite my busy schedule, I am posting something here because I feel that there should be vengeance for mistreating me. So, I came home tired as usual, and hoping to watch another episode of CLANNAD, but somehow 土豆 is lagging like shit, so I gave up. Then I went to check SMB, and the seemingly most urgent message was the one which Laurang urging us to vote for GG. Who doesn't want to vote when she posted the same message a few weeks ago? But that bloody site requires me to sign up. Of course, I dislike filling in my particulars (it triggers my paranoia). So I didn't bother after that. However, the new message told us to sign up. So I 给了点面子 and signed up. That f*cking site requires a username more than 8 characters and less then 50. Who the hell needs a username of more than eight characters and which idiot would have a username of up to 50 characters? Imagine signing in at your friend's house. You type 50 characters and then later they say wrong username or password. Furthermore, there is no password strength requirement, so I just type an x there and with some hacking software anyone can get into my account in less than a second, retarded isn't it? Personally, I think a 3-character username is short, nice and easy to remember. Therefore, I didn't like it and signed up as "eight_characters". After that I tried voting again, but they said my account was inactive and made me take the trouble to go to my email and activate my account, and then the link below took me to some blank page that tells me there is a null error. I went back to the original page and tried again, but it didn't work and after 3 times it told me I've used up my quota. Therefore, I requested for a change of password, when I changed it back, I couldn't login again.

Now you get the point? I have spent much more time waiting for my internet to load than you reading this post and I couldn't vote in the end.

You must agree with me, STOMP is an A.H. website that contains loads of 牛の糞 that scams you for your personal information. I should sue them for this.

Regretting that I went early

I was at band camp for the past few days and obviously I didn't like it. Not talking about the food or the rules, just didn't like the cover up for the lack of programmes. Although it's a common problem to face a lack of programmes since the duration is decided before the schedule. However, anyone looking at the programmes would find it similar to Animal Farm. Morning: Band Practice, Afternoon: Free time, Evening: Sectionals. Seems alright at first sight, but what I want to talk about is the middle part. It's free time, but you should have sectionals. Not saying that there would be any penalty if you didn't, but of course the peer pressure that is present is the most important factor of all. Therefore, no one dared to slack off. For those of you who read Animal Farm, you should remember the officially called "Voluntary work" on Sunday, but if you don't work, you don't eat. However, this is a slightly different situation. As I've said earlier, there is only peer pressure that is present. However, peer pressure is not something which you can measure. Therefore, it would not be obvious whether you would have made any sacrifices for slacking off, especially in the modern society which is governed by law. Thus, Jia Sheng can say that we were given nice choices on how to use our time (e.g. go for an outing, movie, LAN etc.), but we simply were too enthusiastic. However, I doubt that he had actually planned all this. So are things born this way? The most common method to counter all these miseries is not to go for the camp, but attendance is important (there's attendance?). I actually went because DM said it was the fun type of camp (agreed, very slacking attitude indeed), but very boring (get a life please, no one can stand doing the same thing over and over again for one whole day). I too was given a chance to go later, but somehow I didn't. Not saying that there aren't other methods to counter, but I would say that the materials needed aren't ready.

Boredom

It's hard to be a loner you know. I've been feeling rather lonely since the holidays started, so wanting to talk to someone or go out a little bit. However, due to my hatred for crowded places and my weird complex, I want to go home the moment I see someone I don't know. Therefore, I always stayed at home. At home, the only source of entertainment was the computer (channel 5 and 8 only have noobshit shows), which I use to play DotA and watch anime. By the way, I've stopped watching ハヤテのごとく, reason being the absence of relationship between the episodes. In the meantime, I've finished 2 other animes and is currently watching Elfen Lied (The first anime which I couldn't find on any chinese video sharing sites. The most simple and straight forward reason would be because the anime contained too much H, and if you look at the introduction on 百度 and Wikipedia, you would notice that Wikipedia sounded much more positive than 百度. If you simply watched the beginning of the story, then you would most likely say that it sucked, but the middle part was rather meaningful. However, there is something I agree with 百度, which is the introduction of characters which get killed soon after they get brought into the story, which is one thing the 漫画家 did to sell more paper I suppose. However, what was more weird was that the anime had all these 废 parts as well, but did not really follow closely with the manga. Of course part of it was to hide some H, but they could have put in more meaningful stuff like showing more of 耕太's anxiety when Nyuu went missing and not making it seem like 耕太 found her immediately after.), which would last me for at most 2 more days, then I will continue clearing my long list of anime waiting to be watched. Good thing there's band prac tomorrow, not saying that I like it very much, but having a change is important.

JLPT tomorrow

From the beginning of the holidays till now, I haven't revised much for this test other than reading 7 pages of my "狼と香辛料". Good news is I can remember about 60% of the words I learnt from that book, and bad news is: I am reading too slowly. How am I supposed to read fast if I only do when there is no band prac or school stuff? Recently, my Japanese haven't been improving as fast as it was during the June holidays, maybe because I grew more comfortable with the major slacking before the EOY exams. To be honest, I would say that I may be the only one that actually bothers to study at home, where as others simply slack or do what they like with what they have (If you don't understand what I mean, your literature is a failure. And if you are thinking that my lit is nothing better, is because the problem lies with my writing skills, not my comprehension skills), therefore still allowing me to remain dominant. However, what is the point of a veteran owning noobs? He still dies when he meets and elite. You look at the strongest chess players or the best sportsmen, their opponent aren't any weaker, it's just that because of that slightest bit of coincidence which allowed them to win. Half a year ago I was amazed by the J2 senior who survived through 6 years of 3rd Lang (though I think that his 3rd lang results may not be that good due to the scarce number of people that are actually still surviving), but now, it seems that there aren't much things that actually inspire me to become better because of the lack of a challenge. If you doubt what I say, go look at the online games people play. A very simple example would be Maple. The pro gamers tell you that it's a game for babies, but look at the number of people playing! Why? Because there is a challenge! Some people tell me that they have to play comp for the whole holiday just because they do not want to be outleveled by their friends. (-.-"') So basically, the presence of a challenge is very important. Until now, my parents are still bloody worried that I would screw up the test. (Are they still not confident enough just by seeing the overpwnage EOY overall which I got?) But honestly, if I screw up the test, it would a real waste of time and effort.

Waking Up or still in Wonderland?

Well, it's not really a matter of whether I am awake or not, but I feel that this reminder had given me a better understanding of the current circumstances. The concert was yesterday, personally I think we did alright, but well, some people weren't happy. Looking at the easy pieces we played (we just had a lot of off-beats), it just wasn't enough. I know we rehearsed many times, but we are just too shy (ignoring that fact that we only got like 2/3 of the people) and the song turned out to be very soft (but good :) ). Still, at the end of the day, we sucked. I know that the SC also told us that we were alright, but somehow only the nasty stuff went into my head. "You were not together..." and other stuff, but I would also say that part of it was because we were not used to the way the Assistant conductor conducts. Personally I think that the concert is somehow used to flame us. I was also told that this was chapter one only, and I was thinking of it as 2 or 3 then but realised that it was only the prolouge. There would be many stuff waiting for me when school reopens (CSE, SIMO, MOP, SMP, 3rd Lang). Simply these 5 are enough to kill me, which means there would be some sacrifice, but no, there wouldn't be.

Band Test

Sadly, next year is Indoor SYF, so got new policy again, which is those who don't pass the test would be put on probation, one thing is because we don't need so many people now and there are some who are pulling the whole band behind. So the thing is, why the hell did Doggy Chen put so many people in band in the first place? Not everyone is so free to spare 3 afternoons to come for EP3 you know? Yet they are saying that we are gonna participate in Display Category in 2010. Now we should have about 60 people, but then Leng wants to cut half of the people. First thought would be you are only on probation if you don't pass. But think harder, and you find too many in one section drowns the rest. So basically if one section gets chopped into half, all the others would suffer too. Yes so basically everyone must pass, which should be rather likely, though I don't know how the hell is the string bass is gonna be tested on articulation and how Shuin Hern is gonna pass his theory if he is going for some NYGH thing in the evening, and honestly I haven't even revised on any of the minor scales yet or went to wiki to read up on my instrument. I do have a nice idea though, if they are gonna put people on probation if they don't pass, then they might as well make it so that it is 100% probation (you don't have to come until further notice) and allow those to have their time put to better use. Hopefully I pass tomorrow, though personally I don't have any confidence in doing so because last year I barely did ( though I crapped the whole thing).

Class Chalet

I personally think that the chalet was totally screwed. We only planned for the barbecue... With FT starting the fire??? You sure??? We had to resort to Pokemon cards and Xbox 360 to entertain ourselves, some had to go LAN. I must admit that those who went LAN on Tuesday were indeed kind enough to let the other few have the Xbox to themselves, although nothing was fun to me other than Halo (damn dizzy). On the 3rd day, when we thought that we had to check out, the person at the reception told us we had one more night!!! If everyone had like 15 bucks then we would have wanted to stay one more day, but Wenqi and CW only had 2 bucks left... A bit can stay... So some left I think, and others stayed till the evening. The only thing I gained was how to use Clockwerk Golbin, and some more "bonding" (it's in inverted commas because it's the original meaning which is used less often). Sadly, I really felt that it's difficult to part this time, compared to the one in P6. Reason being the annoying people are those whom we target when we make jokes, and there weren't these people whom I hated. I've got this feeling that something is missing when I have a lighter bag, and often find missing and extra things in that bag when I arrive at school. The last moment of joy... seemed so sorrowful.

Back!

Phew! After 5 days of being barbaric, I finally returned to the civilized society that we are currently living in. OBS was damn tiring, though I must admit that it was rather meaningful because there was this sense of accomplishment. There were many fun things too, but I don't want to talk about them because they would make OBS sound fun... (not fun!) I received my results on Friday and somehow got an MSG of 1.22, with English A1??? Though I personally agree that my English standard is not good, there is this system of ACE (not really grateful to it since everyone's got 15 ACE) and OP that I must thank. For some strange reason, I never speak up during Math and Science classes, and a lot during language classes, thus maxing my language OP... Furthermore, my English was about 74.3, but the integer system rounded it up... The 1.22 were part of the foreseen "unforeseen" circumstances, but I was thinking that Jap would not be counted and IH of B3 with Chinese A2. However, it just turned out all right. After that was DotA for me, some game that I have been sucking at for 2 months and finally learned how to use DK! It's class chalet next. I would post more then... Oh yeah, it's already the end of the year and I would have to say goodbye to about half of my class (Expecting most to go to SMTP science), hopefully next year I can be more like a robot.

Well...

What a long time since the last post, but I am posting again. First thing I would like to say is, "I have failed, in many aspects." The first blow came during the release of the IH results. Ahh! Another crapping paper which I couldn't score well because my crap wasn't the crap that the Geog teachers wanted and another History paper of great value which I have once again screwed up the comparison question between Source B and Source C. To be honest, my first attempt without the SBQ guidelines was much better as compared to the answers I wrote after reading those guidelines. Is it true that though guidelines are meant to guide people, they may ruin the natural talent that is present in each and everyone, by causing a misconception that there is only one way to do something? Anyway, I only got 68.5 for my IH. The second blow: Lit. Ahh! Who moderated my LotF??? From 22 to 19... although I do admit the second part was partially crapped due to the lack of time, resulting in me getting 50/75 for my Lit. Last blow, though may not be obvious in any way, I only got 91.4 for my Jap. WTF!!! There were so many careless mistakes and I didn't read the questions properly for the listening exam. Although I would say that this year's main goal is to get into CSE, I am not aiming to get 1.0 with A1s that are scraped, but 1.44 with ownage A1s and rightful A2s. However, it is just foolish to be pushing up the top end which is almost impossible to push up much further, but it is perfection that I seek, which is unlikely due to the amount of careless mistakes I am making. To be honest, I am not really happy with the MSG of 1.33, because I still got A1 for Chinese, which I screwed up the Paper 1, and A2 for IH, which should have been a rightful A1 due to the quality that I always tried to give. Until now, I haven't realized that it has all ended, still being a little frustrated with it while returning to the virtual world at the same time. I started watching ハヤテのごとく today, which although doesn't allow me to feel the bliss that I have experienced during SHUFFLE! and Prism Ark, portrays the happiness of human beings when we work hard and strive for a better world. Don't expect me to post anymore in a week, I would be enjoying my anime. さよなら！