The results

The result of my exposition wasn't satisfying. Without looking at the marking system and using the top scorers' results as a comparison, I would say that I had been mistreated. Supposing that 30 means perfect, which means that one has stated his points clearly and supported his argument well, those who scored 23 would thus be considered far from that. Looking the few grammar errors on my 570 word essay, which is not enough to show why I actually scored so low as compared to the rest of the class. Regarding what is missing in the text, which includes one "little vague" and two "exp."s, I might feel that the score was reasonable. However, there is no reason for the full mark to be there just to make sure that no one scores a 100% and usage of bombastic language is not required, thus giving more room for the mistakes I made. One of the "exp."s is written at the end of a paragraph, basically marking that I did not explain my explanation that explained an example. Regardless of whatever explanation is missing, sometimes common sense tells you that if I had to explain my explanation again, I would have to explain that explanation again and so on and so for, which means that there is no end to the essay, which is thus impossible to be achieved and is implying that no matter how much you write, you would end up with an "exp." there. Furthermore, there is no right or wrong in language, and the few ticks without comments simply mean meeting expectations, and thus do not contribute anything to the deduction of marks. So why did I get such a low score? I believe that there is no reason behind it, and people simply use the benefit of the doubt, causing others having no way of rebutting.

Memorable things

In chronological order, the first thing that I would like to announce is that I got 27th for SMO, which was considered totally shit (by me of course). One thing is because I got pwned by the Sec1s. Most of the pro people from 1M got 30 for the first round, and I was lagging behind by 10 marks. It was simply thanks to my luck in the second round that I was able to get into the top 30. However, there was still a little strategy involved because I was revising on Geometry, where I can score in the second round. Good thing is a similar question got tested, but basically I was lucky.

Then it's the Geog test. This is the first time in almost a year that I felt that I would not be simply passing a Geog test. Hopefully this term my MSG can get to 2. :)

Last thing was the Opening Ceremony of the Olympics. Personally I felt that the ideas were simply coped from the 5000 years of Chinese history, but how you apply them is one great feat that not many people can do and no matter how unoriginal the idea is, you cannot say that it is plagiarised. I was watching, or rather staring, at the television screen until my eyes went into this weird state that you cannot resist avoiding it nor staring at it. The entrance of the teams took quite a long time, and was rather boring, but I couldn't be bothered to finish my English Assignment. On the overall, the ceremony was great, but somehow I just can't seem to feel proud at such times, it is just that simple satisfaction, and I always felt that there was room for the better. It may be due to the natural humility that is present inside me, but my hate for losing forces me to use these solid evidence sometimes. Anyway, the good memories are always forgotten, but so are the bad ones as "yesterday is history".

One Winner, Year 2008

This is a two-in-one post because it would seem weird to double post and I haven't got time to share bad news. Reason being: 1. It's bad news, but not bad enough to make to dump my miseries online. 2. I've got no time.

OK, first on NBC, we got 3rd! People would go "Wow!", but (although I didn't go) I think none of us from my school cheered. We were rather sad due to all the "hard" work (more of extra work because we slack during practices but there were extra practices) and comforted ourselves by finding excuses. Well, I would say that it may be necessary to save those who are going to become emo, but some people would think that next year we are gonna have more people so we don't have to work so hard. I wouldn't say that we were lousy, because our piece was definitely Singaporean standard, but I definitely realized that lack of experience. I forgot about what happened on the first day. Compared to the facilities in XNPS, I would say that there are pros and cons. Good thing is that we can hear our mistakes, but bad thing about our band room is that we sound loud. Then, when we went into VCH, it became very soft because our ff was like an mf (large hall) there, but of course pp was still like mp (the thing behind us, don't know what it's called but anyway it makes echoes I think). I thought that we screwed up and somehow we still got 3rd because it's Singapore. I am not the type that despairs but is very pessimistic, and thus I strive for excellence, but I must have interest. Anyway, we screwed.

Next thing was the 柔道, B and C boys were thrashing (obvious thing since RI is slacker school). Then the A girls and boys lost. It's something that usually happens but you never know what it is like to be cheering for a losing team. I can understand how those people feel now. Looking at our school, there were this bunch of people who did not cheer. I wouldn't say that the situation is any better on the other side, but as compared, we cheer not because we win, but because we belong to the school, despite the lost. I seriously don't want that thing that happened more than 16 years ago to happen again. It shows the school spirit, but I think the spirit should be shown through out performance. Therefore, I wouldn't say that the competitors did not train hard enough, but I am saying that some might have done what they ought to do. Furthermore, we aren't like them, looking at our school, our sports class is not the last class in the cohort, which is much better as compared to the Retarded Family Members who has school glory before student welfare. The track and field team secured the streak.

溜め息をつく, we deserve a rest, but we can do better.

Temptation

It really seems like that Chapter in Death Note. When 南空直美 was tempted to join the investigation team, her ID was shown to 夜神月, which caused her death. Somehow I have this weird feeling that the offer to join the EXCO, would end up in a similar way. 2 days ago, I was determined to pon the band practice tomorrow, but after the mentioning of the positions in the EXCO, there's something preventing me from ponning that practice, although I still have Projects Day Competition to worry about and there aren't much time left for me to do my share. I would consider NBC to be something that is done too well for nothing. However, it should be for the sake of next years SYF Competition, so that history does not repeat itself. Anyway, I wasn't dedicated to going for that practice, but in the end, in a way, I was forced to do so. Looks like only the weather understands me, raining when I wanted it to, and being sunny at the right time as well, but I am not cherishing it. PDC, EXCO, ACE, I can only choose 2, but not all three. It's hard to be a perfectionist, but I wanted to do it, and everytime I am busy, I tell myself, that there would be a break after that. However, this time there isn't any break, as we'll have to prepare for National Day after NBC. There is this spirit that is lost as I somehow became a retard that is working hard for nothing. I can forgo all of it, since I wouldn't lose anything, but I would feel regretful, and it's really a pressurizing feeling. However, if this continues, the result has no difference.

Wasted!

Today was wasted, or maybe I should have just called my parents. I woke up with a sore throat, although I wasn't really sure weather it was really one, but it was very dry and hurt anyway. I was looking for some mint, but I finished my Clorets 2 days ago, so I had to brush my teeth and got some Colgate mixed with water and saliva into my throat to feel better. I couldn't tell if last night's disrupted sleep worsened the condition, but I got headaches after I went to school, not even having a chance to think "Shit!". Well, the IVP meeting was rather short and I went to lunch at about eleven. Good thing about holidays is that I can eat more during lunch and spend less cash. But somehow even after parting with my friends before lunch to have a cheaper and lighter meal at the canteen instead of SIM, it still made some of the remaining red blood cells left in the channel from my heart to my brain join the channel from my heart to my stomach and small intestine. I was feeling feverish, even though my brain was functioning well but with the accuracy decreasing a bit, and had to go home instead of going to the Overweight Training. There wasn't any water at home so I couldn't sleep immediately, because I would need a lot of water after waking up, so I boiled some and played RA2 for the meantime. How smart of me! It only took 10 minutes to boil the water and 40 min to complete the 6th campaign with difficulty set to hardest. I was feeling dizzy after that, but couldn't sleep and lay on the bed for 1.5 hrs. Then woke up, unwilling to sleep and watch my anime! After not watching for a few days, I get poor attitude when it comes to work, because the virtual world is what keeps us lively. Then my father came back, and gave me some pills. My headache was gone after 2 hours, and now I am just waiting for my sore throat and hurting ear to heal. The day was really wasted because if I took the medicine earlier, there wouldn't have been so much time wasted.

Camp

Well, it's already 2 days after Band Camp, but reflections are of better quality if done now. I don't know the real reason but most probably it's because of the strong impression of the last day of the camp that is left in a person's mind. OK, first thing is that I want to announce that I feel that Jia Sheng is a Gideon that does not scratch. Basically you should see that Gideon is still NCC-and-Judo-minded when it comes to rules, whereas Jia Sheng is a non-scratching-Gideon who is born that way. Although totalitarianism ensures a definite amount of results, democracy can have 2 times the efficiency, despite the fact that it may turn out to be nothing as well. Therefore, we can say that it depends on the leadership qualities of a leaders. We all know that leaders are born and not made, or rather a made leader is never as good as a born one. Those who are given a chance is called "made" whereas most of the time, the born leader is the one which is hidden. People say leaders have power, but I say they are the weaklings. No leader can deny what I've said, as they can't say that they are born or have leadership qualities. It is the followers who have the right to judge them. So back to the totalitarianism and democracy part, a born leader will ensure democracy to be 100% double and 0% nothing. Just like Sheer Cold with 6 X Accuracies. Everyone who has a talent in something would have an easy time when it comes to that and has 100% success and 0% failure. However, a made leader=no talent. Which means things come from experience and since 失败是成功之母, they must fail once, and this failure means everybody GG, and say "さよなら" to your leadership position. Those who succeeded are merely lucky, as Sheer Cold always have a 30% chance of hitting, but it means they would die next turn. Anyway, there isn't anyone that can fit the BM and DM position in the band, or rather those people who have potential (potential is hidden), are not those who are leading. Leadership, it's not just about the distribution of work and the fairness of law and order, the whole thing is much more complicated, and leaders who don't realize this are what lead to the slow progress of the society.

Second thing, the camp was planned poorly, very poorly. Too much food, no drinks, too much time, which got taken over by band prac, and talentime, which is just something to aid the lack of programmes. I say JiaSheng you say noob, JiaSheng! Noob! JiaSheng! Noob! JiaSheng JiaSheng! Noob of the Noobs!

Wrong timing again!

You teachers hit the wrong timing again. We were rather free last week, and I find myself being so busy now. So why am I blogging? I blog when I feel too ecstatic, depressed or pressurized. Shiehls tells us to do the Chinese file now, and with Grace Chua's feature story undone, I feel so tired of all this crap, that do not count in my results or benefit me in anyway, but yet it's not me if I don't complete them. If you ask me the root of the problem, I would say that most of the work come from Shiehls, who marks them blindly, giving SG a tick for writing crap. So why am I doing all these homework? We all know there's something wrong, but we don't know what to do. We can't challenge authority, and yet we can't be smart. We were taught not to take back what we say, and yet Shiehls does! So anyway, we are still trapped in the loop, which is so not IP like, but Animal Farm under Napoleon's rule.

Luck

I was never prepared for any history test last year, other than EOYs, scraping A1s throughout the whole year. This is the first time I really studied for a retarded class test, and guess what, when you are prepared, prepare to be careless, that's what happens to me when I study for an IH test. It's like whenever I study, either the other half of the syllabus is tested or I screw up somewhere, wouldn't cause me to fail, but getting C6 is total shit compared to others. It's like the IH tests don't go my way. The Math and Science papers can't be screwed up because of the unlikeliness of misinterpreting a question, but it just happens. It's like having a 95% accuracy, but this other 5% just hits the most important part. It's like almost impossible, looking at the 95% accuracy, and that question among the other questions. However, with just that 0.01% chance, it's possible. Therefore, there are so many skydivers with 2 spoilt parachutes. So it's just the luck you see, and in life, it's like no matter how unlikely a good thing would happen, there is this weird high chance of it hitting right on the dot, just see the chances of winning ToTo, and yet there are winners. So who to blame? I say forget it, it's only 2% of final year and I shall revise for Geog, which I don't know whether I can make a comeback for, but it's likely because it's unlikely.

Today's Tuesday

Oh well, you can't blame it on anyone when LEP gets shifted to Tuesday. But when you are told that both things are compulsory, then which one should you go for? Well, I was the only one who went for MOP, I wouldn't say that I am right, but usually it depends on your level of enthisiasm, which is why I never go for Humanities Seminars or stuff related to that. I wouldn't say that I have no interest in LEP, but I think I can just copy notes from my classmates and somehow it's like you will forget most things if they aren't used often or recorded somewhere. The MOP test was today anyway, and I only knew how to do 1 question. I would say that I am not good in the theoretical part and somehow we weren't taught to do one of the questions. I'm not sure about the other but I think it's a bit weird as it was the other variable that actually mattered. In other words, since the question didn't state that the other variable must be an integer, it could be anything and thus unlikely to have the same answer after the division. Maybe I should just admit that I am not as good, but weren't they supposed to test us on things that are taught? That's the point of a test anyway. The current education system is still focusing on how to score well for a test and the teachers just blames it on the students and call them incapable. The meaning of a test is now gone. However, it's not like a test makes everything perfect. We learn techniques of a test, but not the answers. Like we are taught how to score well for a literature test by just memorising all the facts that are taught and apply them in the test. It's useless, we would be totally stunned if we were to be given any unseen poetry. So just blame it on our teachers when you don't score well for a test.

Must post!

My busy times are over, at least for this term. I was thinking about the comments that the other Marching Bands made, especially our only opponent, who said that they were confident of beating us. So I was wondering what was their motive. It's like if you were the best, you would want to hide something, but if you are not very good, you may want to play the game using psychology. The point is, people who think more will not be scared, but so are others who are determined to win. I may say that those who are determined may be less likely to screw up on the actual day, but those who think more have their own advantages as well.

So what was the point of saying that you are determined to win? Nice try, we are called a book-smart school, but we definitely have the ability to analyze before we learn. Nothing has a 100% accuracy, but we somehow should act according to our opponent's IQ. Usually on someone normal, reverse psychology works, but on someone with high IQ, it's hard to tell whether to use that as well. You only have a 50% chance.

We were also talking about charisma, basically about Zhang Yi who got famous recently for some strange reason which I don't know. I think it's rather useful, but can anyone truly define what's that? And as I've mentioned, you only have 50% chance.

Sometimes, you have to trust your instincts, which does not come from the mind. I can say that I am lucky, as my instincts work 70% of the time. But again, logic totally pwns feelings. So what would you do if you don't know anything but was forced to make a decision? I go to the internet... (Basically because I can't think of anything else to write)