One Winner, Year 2008

This is a two-in-one post because it would seem weird to double post and I haven't got time to share bad news. Reason being: 1. It's bad news, but not bad enough to make to dump my miseries online. 2. I've got no time.

OK, first on NBC, we got 3rd! People would go "Wow!", but (although I didn't go) I think none of us from my school cheered. We were rather sad due to all the "hard" work (more of extra work because we slack during practices but there were extra practices) and comforted ourselves by finding excuses. Well, I would say that it may be necessary to save those who are going to become emo, but some people would think that next year we are gonna have more people so we don't have to work so hard. I wouldn't say that we were lousy, because our piece was definitely Singaporean standard, but I definitely realized that lack of experience. I forgot about what happened on the first day. Compared to the facilities in XNPS, I would say that there are pros and cons. Good thing is that we can hear our mistakes, but bad thing about our band room is that we sound loud. Then, when we went into VCH, it became very soft because our ff was like an mf (large hall) there, but of course pp was still like mp (the thing behind us, don't know what it's called but anyway it makes echoes I think). I thought that we screwed up and somehow we still got 3rd because it's Singapore. I am not the type that despairs but is very pessimistic, and thus I strive for excellence, but I must have interest. Anyway, we screwed.

Next thing was the 柔道, B and C boys were thrashing (obvious thing since RI is slacker school). Then the A girls and boys lost. It's something that usually happens but you never know what it is like to be cheering for a losing team. I can understand how those people feel now. Looking at our school, there were this bunch of people who did not cheer. I wouldn't say that the situation is any better on the other side, but as compared, we cheer not because we win, but because we belong to the school, despite the lost. I seriously don't want that thing that happened more than 16 years ago to happen again. It shows the school spirit, but I think the spirit should be shown through out performance. Therefore, I wouldn't say that the competitors did not train hard enough, but I am saying that some might have done what they ought to do. Furthermore, we aren't like them, looking at our school, our sports class is not the last class in the cohort, which is much better as compared to the Retarded Family Members who has school glory before student welfare. The track and field team secured the streak.

溜め息をつく, we deserve a rest, but we can do better.

Temptation

It really seems like that Chapter in Death Note. When 南空直美 was tempted to join the investigation team, her ID was shown to 夜神月, which caused her death. Somehow I have this weird feeling that the offer to join the EXCO, would end up in a similar way. 2 days ago, I was determined to pon the band practice tomorrow, but after the mentioning of the positions in the EXCO, there's something preventing me from ponning that practice, although I still have Projects Day Competition to worry about and there aren't much time left for me to do my share. I would consider NBC to be something that is done too well for nothing. However, it should be for the sake of next years SYF Competition, so that history does not repeat itself. Anyway, I wasn't dedicated to going for that practice, but in the end, in a way, I was forced to do so. Looks like only the weather understands me, raining when I wanted it to, and being sunny at the right time as well, but I am not cherishing it. PDC, EXCO, ACE, I can only choose 2, but not all three. It's hard to be a perfectionist, but I wanted to do it, and everytime I am busy, I tell myself, that there would be a break after that. However, this time there isn't any break, as we'll have to prepare for National Day after NBC. There is this spirit that is lost as I somehow became a retard that is working hard for nothing. I can forgo all of it, since I wouldn't lose anything, but I would feel regretful, and it's really a pressurizing feeling. However, if this continues, the result has no difference.