Regretting that I went early

I was at band camp for the past few days and obviously I didn't like it. Not talking about the food or the rules, just didn't like the cover up for the lack of programmes. Although it's a common problem to face a lack of programmes since the duration is decided before the schedule. However, anyone looking at the programmes would find it similar to Animal Farm. Morning: Band Practice, Afternoon: Free time, Evening: Sectionals. Seems alright at first sight, but what I want to talk about is the middle part. It's free time, but you should have sectionals. Not saying that there would be any penalty if you didn't, but of course the peer pressure that is present is the most important factor of all. Therefore, no one dared to slack off. For those of you who read Animal Farm, you should remember the officially called "Voluntary work" on Sunday, but if you don't work, you don't eat. However, this is a slightly different situation. As I've said earlier, there is only peer pressure that is present. However, peer pressure is not something which you can measure. Therefore, it would not be obvious whether you would have made any sacrifices for slacking off, especially in the modern society which is governed by law. Thus, Jia Sheng can say that we were given nice choices on how to use our time (e.g. go for an outing, movie, LAN etc.), but we simply were too enthusiastic. However, I doubt that he had actually planned all this. So are things born this way? The most common method to counter all these miseries is not to go for the camp, but attendance is important (there's attendance?). I actually went because DM said it was the fun type of camp (agreed, very slacking attitude indeed), but very boring (get a life please, no one can stand doing the same thing over and over again for one whole day). I too was given a chance to go later, but somehow I didn't. Not saying that there aren't other methods to counter, but I would say that the materials needed aren't ready.

Boredom

It's hard to be a loner you know. I've been feeling rather lonely since the holidays started, so wanting to talk to someone or go out a little bit. However, due to my hatred for crowded places and my weird complex, I want to go home the moment I see someone I don't know. Therefore, I always stayed at home. At home, the only source of entertainment was the computer (channel 5 and 8 only have noobshit shows), which I use to play DotA and watch anime. By the way, I've stopped watching ハヤテのごとく, reason being the absence of relationship between the episodes. In the meantime, I've finished 2 other animes and is currently watching Elfen Lied (The first anime which I couldn't find on any chinese video sharing sites. The most simple and straight forward reason would be because the anime contained too much H, and if you look at the introduction on 百度 and Wikipedia, you would notice that Wikipedia sounded much more positive than 百度. If you simply watched the beginning of the story, then you would most likely say that it sucked, but the middle part was rather meaningful. However, there is something I agree with 百度, which is the introduction of characters which get killed soon after they get brought into the story, which is one thing the 漫画家 did to sell more paper I suppose. However, what was more weird was that the anime had all these 废 parts as well, but did not really follow closely with the manga. Of course part of it was to hide some H, but they could have put in more meaningful stuff like showing more of 耕太's anxiety when Nyuu went missing and not making it seem like 耕太 found her immediately after.), which would last me for at most 2 more days, then I will continue clearing my long list of anime waiting to be watched. Good thing there's band prac tomorrow, not saying that I like it very much, but having a change is important.

JLPT tomorrow

From the beginning of the holidays till now, I haven't revised much for this test other than reading 7 pages of my "狼と香辛料". Good news is I can remember about 60% of the words I learnt from that book, and bad news is: I am reading too slowly. How am I supposed to read fast if I only do when there is no band prac or school stuff? Recently, my Japanese haven't been improving as fast as it was during the June holidays, maybe because I grew more comfortable with the major slacking before the EOY exams. To be honest, I would say that I may be the only one that actually bothers to study at home, where as others simply slack or do what they like with what they have (If you don't understand what I mean, your literature is a failure. And if you are thinking that my lit is nothing better, is because the problem lies with my writing skills, not my comprehension skills), therefore still allowing me to remain dominant. However, what is the point of a veteran owning noobs? He still dies when he meets and elite. You look at the strongest chess players or the best sportsmen, their opponent aren't any weaker, it's just that because of that slightest bit of coincidence which allowed them to win. Half a year ago I was amazed by the J2 senior who survived through 6 years of 3rd Lang (though I think that his 3rd lang results may not be that good due to the scarce number of people that are actually still surviving), but now, it seems that there aren't much things that actually inspire me to become better because of the lack of a challenge. If you doubt what I say, go look at the online games people play. A very simple example would be Maple. The pro gamers tell you that it's a game for babies, but look at the number of people playing! Why? Because there is a challenge! Some people tell me that they have to play comp for the whole holiday just because they do not want to be outleveled by their friends. (-.-"') So basically, the presence of a challenge is very important. Until now, my parents are still bloody worried that I would screw up the test. (Are they still not confident enough just by seeing the overpwnage EOY overall which I got?) But honestly, if I screw up the test, it would a real waste of time and effort.

Waking Up or still in Wonderland?

Well, it's not really a matter of whether I am awake or not, but I feel that this reminder had given me a better understanding of the current circumstances. The concert was yesterday, personally I think we did alright, but well, some people weren't happy. Looking at the easy pieces we played (we just had a lot of off-beats), it just wasn't enough. I know we rehearsed many times, but we are just too shy (ignoring that fact that we only got like 2/3 of the people) and the song turned out to be very soft (but good :) ). Still, at the end of the day, we sucked. I know that the SC also told us that we were alright, but somehow only the nasty stuff went into my head. "You were not together..." and other stuff, but I would also say that part of it was because we were not used to the way the Assistant conductor conducts. Personally I think that the concert is somehow used to flame us. I was also told that this was chapter one only, and I was thinking of it as 2 or 3 then but realised that it was only the prolouge. There would be many stuff waiting for me when school reopens (CSE, SIMO, MOP, SMP, 3rd Lang). Simply these 5 are enough to kill me, which means there would be some sacrifice, but no, there wouldn't be.

Band Test

Sadly, next year is Indoor SYF, so got new policy again, which is those who don't pass the test would be put on probation, one thing is because we don't need so many people now and there are some who are pulling the whole band behind. So the thing is, why the hell did Doggy Chen put so many people in band in the first place? Not everyone is so free to spare 3 afternoons to come for EP3 you know? Yet they are saying that we are gonna participate in Display Category in 2010. Now we should have about 60 people, but then Leng wants to cut half of the people. First thought would be you are only on probation if you don't pass. But think harder, and you find too many in one section drowns the rest. So basically if one section gets chopped into half, all the others would suffer too. Yes so basically everyone must pass, which should be rather likely, though I don't know how the hell is the string bass is gonna be tested on articulation and how Shuin Hern is gonna pass his theory if he is going for some NYGH thing in the evening, and honestly I haven't even revised on any of the minor scales yet or went to wiki to read up on my instrument. I do have a nice idea though, if they are gonna put people on probation if they don't pass, then they might as well make it so that it is 100% probation (you don't have to come until further notice) and allow those to have their time put to better use. Hopefully I pass tomorrow, though personally I don't have any confidence in doing so because last year I barely did ( though I crapped the whole thing).

Class Chalet

I personally think that the chalet was totally screwed. We only planned for the barbecue... With FT starting the fire??? You sure??? We had to resort to Pokemon cards and Xbox 360 to entertain ourselves, some had to go LAN. I must admit that those who went LAN on Tuesday were indeed kind enough to let the other few have the Xbox to themselves, although nothing was fun to me other than Halo (damn dizzy). On the 3rd day, when we thought that we had to check out, the person at the reception told us we had one more night!!! If everyone had like 15 bucks then we would have wanted to stay one more day, but Wenqi and CW only had 2 bucks left... A bit can stay... So some left I think, and others stayed till the evening. The only thing I gained was how to use Clockwerk Golbin, and some more "bonding" (it's in inverted commas because it's the original meaning which is used less often). Sadly, I really felt that it's difficult to part this time, compared to the one in P6. Reason being the annoying people are those whom we target when we make jokes, and there weren't these people whom I hated. I've got this feeling that something is missing when I have a lighter bag, and often find missing and extra things in that bag when I arrive at school. The last moment of joy... seemed so sorrowful.

Back!

Phew! After 5 days of being barbaric, I finally returned to the civilized society that we are currently living in. OBS was damn tiring, though I must admit that it was rather meaningful because there was this sense of accomplishment. There were many fun things too, but I don't want to talk about them because they would make OBS sound fun... (not fun!) I received my results on Friday and somehow got an MSG of 1.22, with English A1??? Though I personally agree that my English standard is not good, there is this system of ACE (not really grateful to it since everyone's got 15 ACE) and OP that I must thank. For some strange reason, I never speak up during Math and Science classes, and a lot during language classes, thus maxing my language OP... Furthermore, my English was about 74.3, but the integer system rounded it up... The 1.22 were part of the foreseen "unforeseen" circumstances, but I was thinking that Jap would not be counted and IH of B3 with Chinese A2. However, it just turned out all right. After that was DotA for me, some game that I have been sucking at for 2 months and finally learned how to use DK! It's class chalet next. I would post more then... Oh yeah, it's already the end of the year and I would have to say goodbye to about half of my class (Expecting most to go to SMTP science), hopefully next year I can be more like a robot.

Well...

What a long time since the last post, but I am posting again. First thing I would like to say is, "I have failed, in many aspects." The first blow came during the release of the IH results. Ahh! Another crapping paper which I couldn't score well because my crap wasn't the crap that the Geog teachers wanted and another History paper of great value which I have once again screwed up the comparison question between Source B and Source C. To be honest, my first attempt without the SBQ guidelines was much better as compared to the answers I wrote after reading those guidelines. Is it true that though guidelines are meant to guide people, they may ruin the natural talent that is present in each and everyone, by causing a misconception that there is only one way to do something? Anyway, I only got 68.5 for my IH. The second blow: Lit. Ahh! Who moderated my LotF??? From 22 to 19... although I do admit the second part was partially crapped due to the lack of time, resulting in me getting 50/75 for my Lit. Last blow, though may not be obvious in any way, I only got 91.4 for my Jap. WTF!!! There were so many careless mistakes and I didn't read the questions properly for the listening exam. Although I would say that this year's main goal is to get into CSE, I am not aiming to get 1.0 with A1s that are scraped, but 1.44 with ownage A1s and rightful A2s. However, it is just foolish to be pushing up the top end which is almost impossible to push up much further, but it is perfection that I seek, which is unlikely due to the amount of careless mistakes I am making. To be honest, I am not really happy with the MSG of 1.33, because I still got A1 for Chinese, which I screwed up the Paper 1, and A2 for IH, which should have been a rightful A1 due to the quality that I always tried to give. Until now, I haven't realized that it has all ended, still being a little frustrated with it while returning to the virtual world at the same time. I started watching ハヤテのごとく today, which although doesn't allow me to feel the bliss that I have experienced during SHUFFLE! and Prism Ark, portrays the happiness of human beings when we work hard and strive for a better world. Don't expect me to post anymore in a week, I would be enjoying my anime. さよなら！

Tolerance

Today is really a bad day, and it all started this morning when I got fined for talking. I didn't know how the hell the DM remembered it but he just did, after such a long time. To be more specific I was fined for talking during the exchange with Foon Yew. Not saying that I simply forgot about everything because it was an exchange, but I simply felt that it was our job to make the guests feel welcomed, and more speech means a more meaningful experience. However, the DM doesn't seem to share the same point of view. I would half-heartedly agree that we are showing an example of a good band, but at the same time, we are hosting an exchange. Regardless of the situation, it is impolite to ignore anyone speaking to you. Thus, it is regarded as a lame reason, and the DM is simply looking for trouble.

It was about 12 when I received my exemption letter, and guess what? I didn't get exempted for Science! Wow! That's like so retarded, when I A1ed all the tests and should have maxed my ACE but the teachers owe me. Which caused my score to be 78.8 which is 2 marks away from 80, and to the extent that without the 2 marks I only need a score of 68 to get A1 for the overall grade. Is that hard??? No! Not even the slightest bit, but ridiculous to the extent that it seemed more likely for my name to be missed out.

Of course, it is difficult to endure this kind of emotional trauma. Considering that I had to be punished later, I simply accepted ZhouMY's offer to go KAP together, although it is not right to vent my anger on the ABM (though it's a 废 position). However, it's not my problem anyway, other than maybe I should just get punished another day or simply regard it as something optional.

Luckily, I forgot about almost everything after my lunch, as was feeling better. However, I still have to forget about the LSS thing because the thought of it makes me feel weak.

The results

The result of my exposition wasn't satisfying. Without looking at the marking system and using the top scorers' results as a comparison, I would say that I had been mistreated. Supposing that 30 means perfect, which means that one has stated his points clearly and supported his argument well, those who scored 23 would thus be considered far from that. Looking the few grammar errors on my 570 word essay, which is not enough to show why I actually scored so low as compared to the rest of the class. Regarding what is missing in the text, which includes one "little vague" and two "exp."s, I might feel that the score was reasonable. However, there is no reason for the full mark to be there just to make sure that no one scores a 100% and usage of bombastic language is not required, thus giving more room for the mistakes I made. One of the "exp."s is written at the end of a paragraph, basically marking that I did not explain my explanation that explained an example. Regardless of whatever explanation is missing, sometimes common sense tells you that if I had to explain my explanation again, I would have to explain that explanation again and so on and so for, which means that there is no end to the essay, which is thus impossible to be achieved and is implying that no matter how much you write, you would end up with an "exp." there. Furthermore, there is no right or wrong in language, and the few ticks without comments simply mean meeting expectations, and thus do not contribute anything to the deduction of marks. So why did I get such a low score? I believe that there is no reason behind it, and people simply use the benefit of the doubt, causing others having no way of rebutting.

Memorable things

In chronological order, the first thing that I would like to announce is that I got 27th for SMO, which was considered totally shit (by me of course). One thing is because I got pwned by the Sec1s. Most of the pro people from 1M got 30 for the first round, and I was lagging behind by 10 marks. It was simply thanks to my luck in the second round that I was able to get into the top 30. However, there was still a little strategy involved because I was revising on Geometry, where I can score in the second round. Good thing is a similar question got tested, but basically I was lucky.

Then it's the Geog test. This is the first time in almost a year that I felt that I would not be simply passing a Geog test. Hopefully this term my MSG can get to 2. :)

Last thing was the Opening Ceremony of the Olympics. Personally I felt that the ideas were simply coped from the 5000 years of Chinese history, but how you apply them is one great feat that not many people can do and no matter how unoriginal the idea is, you cannot say that it is plagiarised. I was watching, or rather staring, at the television screen until my eyes went into this weird state that you cannot resist avoiding it nor staring at it. The entrance of the teams took quite a long time, and was rather boring, but I couldn't be bothered to finish my English Assignment. On the overall, the ceremony was great, but somehow I just can't seem to feel proud at such times, it is just that simple satisfaction, and I always felt that there was room for the better. It may be due to the natural humility that is present inside me, but my hate for losing forces me to use these solid evidence sometimes. Anyway, the good memories are always forgotten, but so are the bad ones as "yesterday is history".

One Winner, Year 2008

This is a two-in-one post because it would seem weird to double post and I haven't got time to share bad news. Reason being: 1. It's bad news, but not bad enough to make to dump my miseries online. 2. I've got no time.

OK, first on NBC, we got 3rd! People would go "Wow!", but (although I didn't go) I think none of us from my school cheered. We were rather sad due to all the "hard" work (more of extra work because we slack during practices but there were extra practices) and comforted ourselves by finding excuses. Well, I would say that it may be necessary to save those who are going to become emo, but some people would think that next year we are gonna have more people so we don't have to work so hard. I wouldn't say that we were lousy, because our piece was definitely Singaporean standard, but I definitely realized that lack of experience. I forgot about what happened on the first day. Compared to the facilities in XNPS, I would say that there are pros and cons. Good thing is that we can hear our mistakes, but bad thing about our band room is that we sound loud. Then, when we went into VCH, it became very soft because our ff was like an mf (large hall) there, but of course pp was still like mp (the thing behind us, don't know what it's called but anyway it makes echoes I think). I thought that we screwed up and somehow we still got 3rd because it's Singapore. I am not the type that despairs but is very pessimistic, and thus I strive for excellence, but I must have interest. Anyway, we screwed.

Next thing was the 柔道, B and C boys were thrashing (obvious thing since RI is slacker school). Then the A girls and boys lost. It's something that usually happens but you never know what it is like to be cheering for a losing team. I can understand how those people feel now. Looking at our school, there were this bunch of people who did not cheer. I wouldn't say that the situation is any better on the other side, but as compared, we cheer not because we win, but because we belong to the school, despite the lost. I seriously don't want that thing that happened more than 16 years ago to happen again. It shows the school spirit, but I think the spirit should be shown through out performance. Therefore, I wouldn't say that the competitors did not train hard enough, but I am saying that some might have done what they ought to do. Furthermore, we aren't like them, looking at our school, our sports class is not the last class in the cohort, which is much better as compared to the Retarded Family Members who has school glory before student welfare. The track and field team secured the streak.

溜め息をつく, we deserve a rest, but we can do better.

Temptation

It really seems like that Chapter in Death Note. When 南空直美 was tempted to join the investigation team, her ID was shown to 夜神月, which caused her death. Somehow I have this weird feeling that the offer to join the EXCO, would end up in a similar way. 2 days ago, I was determined to pon the band practice tomorrow, but after the mentioning of the positions in the EXCO, there's something preventing me from ponning that practice, although I still have Projects Day Competition to worry about and there aren't much time left for me to do my share. I would consider NBC to be something that is done too well for nothing. However, it should be for the sake of next years SYF Competition, so that history does not repeat itself. Anyway, I wasn't dedicated to going for that practice, but in the end, in a way, I was forced to do so. Looks like only the weather understands me, raining when I wanted it to, and being sunny at the right time as well, but I am not cherishing it. PDC, EXCO, ACE, I can only choose 2, but not all three. It's hard to be a perfectionist, but I wanted to do it, and everytime I am busy, I tell myself, that there would be a break after that. However, this time there isn't any break, as we'll have to prepare for National Day after NBC. There is this spirit that is lost as I somehow became a retard that is working hard for nothing. I can forgo all of it, since I wouldn't lose anything, but I would feel regretful, and it's really a pressurizing feeling. However, if this continues, the result has no difference.

Wasted!

Today was wasted, or maybe I should have just called my parents. I woke up with a sore throat, although I wasn't really sure weather it was really one, but it was very dry and hurt anyway. I was looking for some mint, but I finished my Clorets 2 days ago, so I had to brush my teeth and got some Colgate mixed with water and saliva into my throat to feel better. I couldn't tell if last night's disrupted sleep worsened the condition, but I got headaches after I went to school, not even having a chance to think "Shit!". Well, the IVP meeting was rather short and I went to lunch at about eleven. Good thing about holidays is that I can eat more during lunch and spend less cash. But somehow even after parting with my friends before lunch to have a cheaper and lighter meal at the canteen instead of SIM, it still made some of the remaining red blood cells left in the channel from my heart to my brain join the channel from my heart to my stomach and small intestine. I was feeling feverish, even though my brain was functioning well but with the accuracy decreasing a bit, and had to go home instead of going to the Overweight Training. There wasn't any water at home so I couldn't sleep immediately, because I would need a lot of water after waking up, so I boiled some and played RA2 for the meantime. How smart of me! It only took 10 minutes to boil the water and 40 min to complete the 6th campaign with difficulty set to hardest. I was feeling dizzy after that, but couldn't sleep and lay on the bed for 1.5 hrs. Then woke up, unwilling to sleep and watch my anime! After not watching for a few days, I get poor attitude when it comes to work, because the virtual world is what keeps us lively. Then my father came back, and gave me some pills. My headache was gone after 2 hours, and now I am just waiting for my sore throat and hurting ear to heal. The day was really wasted because if I took the medicine earlier, there wouldn't have been so much time wasted.

Camp

Well, it's already 2 days after Band Camp, but reflections are of better quality if done now. I don't know the real reason but most probably it's because of the strong impression of the last day of the camp that is left in a person's mind. OK, first thing is that I want to announce that I feel that Jia Sheng is a Gideon that does not scratch. Basically you should see that Gideon is still NCC-and-Judo-minded when it comes to rules, whereas Jia Sheng is a non-scratching-Gideon who is born that way. Although totalitarianism ensures a definite amount of results, democracy can have 2 times the efficiency, despite the fact that it may turn out to be nothing as well. Therefore, we can say that it depends on the leadership qualities of a leaders. We all know that leaders are born and not made, or rather a made leader is never as good as a born one. Those who are given a chance is called "made" whereas most of the time, the born leader is the one which is hidden. People say leaders have power, but I say they are the weaklings. No leader can deny what I've said, as they can't say that they are born or have leadership qualities. It is the followers who have the right to judge them. So back to the totalitarianism and democracy part, a born leader will ensure democracy to be 100% double and 0% nothing. Just like Sheer Cold with 6 X Accuracies. Everyone who has a talent in something would have an easy time when it comes to that and has 100% success and 0% failure. However, a made leader=no talent. Which means things come from experience and since 失败是成功之母, they must fail once, and this failure means everybody GG, and say "さよなら" to your leadership position. Those who succeeded are merely lucky, as Sheer Cold always have a 30% chance of hitting, but it means they would die next turn. Anyway, there isn't anyone that can fit the BM and DM position in the band, or rather those people who have potential (potential is hidden), are not those who are leading. Leadership, it's not just about the distribution of work and the fairness of law and order, the whole thing is much more complicated, and leaders who don't realize this are what lead to the slow progress of the society.

Second thing, the camp was planned poorly, very poorly. Too much food, no drinks, too much time, which got taken over by band prac, and talentime, which is just something to aid the lack of programmes. I say JiaSheng you say noob, JiaSheng! Noob! JiaSheng! Noob! JiaSheng JiaSheng! Noob of the Noobs!

Wrong timing again!

You teachers hit the wrong timing again. We were rather free last week, and I find myself being so busy now. So why am I blogging? I blog when I feel too ecstatic, depressed or pressurized. Shiehls tells us to do the Chinese file now, and with Grace Chua's feature story undone, I feel so tired of all this crap, that do not count in my results or benefit me in anyway, but yet it's not me if I don't complete them. If you ask me the root of the problem, I would say that most of the work come from Shiehls, who marks them blindly, giving SG a tick for writing crap. So why am I doing all these homework? We all know there's something wrong, but we don't know what to do. We can't challenge authority, and yet we can't be smart. We were taught not to take back what we say, and yet Shiehls does! So anyway, we are still trapped in the loop, which is so not IP like, but Animal Farm under Napoleon's rule.

Luck

I was never prepared for any history test last year, other than EOYs, scraping A1s throughout the whole year. This is the first time I really studied for a retarded class test, and guess what, when you are prepared, prepare to be careless, that's what happens to me when I study for an IH test. It's like whenever I study, either the other half of the syllabus is tested or I screw up somewhere, wouldn't cause me to fail, but getting C6 is total shit compared to others. It's like the IH tests don't go my way. The Math and Science papers can't be screwed up because of the unlikeliness of misinterpreting a question, but it just happens. It's like having a 95% accuracy, but this other 5% just hits the most important part. It's like almost impossible, looking at the 95% accuracy, and that question among the other questions. However, with just that 0.01% chance, it's possible. Therefore, there are so many skydivers with 2 spoilt parachutes. So it's just the luck you see, and in life, it's like no matter how unlikely a good thing would happen, there is this weird high chance of it hitting right on the dot, just see the chances of winning ToTo, and yet there are winners. So who to blame? I say forget it, it's only 2% of final year and I shall revise for Geog, which I don't know whether I can make a comeback for, but it's likely because it's unlikely.

Today's Tuesday

Oh well, you can't blame it on anyone when LEP gets shifted to Tuesday. But when you are told that both things are compulsory, then which one should you go for? Well, I was the only one who went for MOP, I wouldn't say that I am right, but usually it depends on your level of enthisiasm, which is why I never go for Humanities Seminars or stuff related to that. I wouldn't say that I have no interest in LEP, but I think I can just copy notes from my classmates and somehow it's like you will forget most things if they aren't used often or recorded somewhere. The MOP test was today anyway, and I only knew how to do 1 question. I would say that I am not good in the theoretical part and somehow we weren't taught to do one of the questions. I'm not sure about the other but I think it's a bit weird as it was the other variable that actually mattered. In other words, since the question didn't state that the other variable must be an integer, it could be anything and thus unlikely to have the same answer after the division. Maybe I should just admit that I am not as good, but weren't they supposed to test us on things that are taught? That's the point of a test anyway. The current education system is still focusing on how to score well for a test and the teachers just blames it on the students and call them incapable. The meaning of a test is now gone. However, it's not like a test makes everything perfect. We learn techniques of a test, but not the answers. Like we are taught how to score well for a literature test by just memorising all the facts that are taught and apply them in the test. It's useless, we would be totally stunned if we were to be given any unseen poetry. So just blame it on our teachers when you don't score well for a test.

Must post!

My busy times are over, at least for this term. I was thinking about the comments that the other Marching Bands made, especially our only opponent, who said that they were confident of beating us. So I was wondering what was their motive. It's like if you were the best, you would want to hide something, but if you are not very good, you may want to play the game using psychology. The point is, people who think more will not be scared, but so are others who are determined to win. I may say that those who are determined may be less likely to screw up on the actual day, but those who think more have their own advantages as well.

So what was the point of saying that you are determined to win? Nice try, we are called a book-smart school, but we definitely have the ability to analyze before we learn. Nothing has a 100% accuracy, but we somehow should act according to our opponent's IQ. Usually on someone normal, reverse psychology works, but on someone with high IQ, it's hard to tell whether to use that as well. You only have a 50% chance.

We were also talking about charisma, basically about Zhang Yi who got famous recently for some strange reason which I don't know. I think it's rather useful, but can anyone truly define what's that? And as I've mentioned, you only have 50% chance.

Sometimes, you have to trust your instincts, which does not come from the mind. I can say that I am lucky, as my instincts work 70% of the time. But again, logic totally pwns feelings. So what would you do if you don't know anything but was forced to make a decision? I go to the internet... (Basically because I can't think of anything else to write)

Tomorrow is a holiday!

Thanks to the seniors, tomorrow's a holiday. Basically I find it meaningless for us as we didn't work hard anyway, but most probably it's to let the teachers have some rest. It just seems like another labour day, when people are recognised for their hard work and thus allowed to have some rest. I do agree that the lower sec are just a bunch of slackers, mostly anyway. There are people who need this day of rest. I also feel that maybe the school holidays aren't so good. We should have some more days and holidays in each term. Maybe Sat, Sun and Wed so that we won't feel so stressed on weekdays and not so bored during the holidays. I've been slacking recently, not doing IH homework, which I think is useless, especialy in Singapore context. However, this causes a sense of emptiness inside me. Like when your life is too good, you feel that you should have accomplished something, although you can slack if you want.

To think of it in such a way, we may not achieve such good grades a few years later when it comes to the 94 batch. It's like we aren't all-rounded people but we win competitions because of our talents in specific areas. I just simply feel that we can't be concentrating on so many things in life as we can do much better if we just concentrated on just one things. However, the general public always think differently and that's why it's more difficult for any friendship to start for me. Basically, I just think that it's rather dull to be the same as others, even if it means that I am not good, I would still be unique.

Camp

I just came back from band camp, and I slept well, so I am rather energetic right now. We were totally pwned by TK. They have so many complicated formations, and they danced when they marched. I seriously feel that our band lack some creativity, it's like we are following everything we were told to do, without any suggestions or flexibility. However, what we have now is probably enough.

It's rather sad that I received some pathetic results when I came back. LEP pulled me to 2.75, or I would have gotten 3. The results are at their extreme ends this time, so the average is somewhere in the middle. The teachers are also to blame as the normal school work somehow had a heavier weightage and some of the marking schemes changed. I would like to say that I am feeling tired of having so many commitments and feel like slacking like the others. However, all of them are meaningful and I don't see the point of quitting, which means I am still being challenged. At this rate, I should be going to a non-CSE class. It doesn't matter anyway, I am already having some doubts about that as quite a number of the seniors have quitted. But not quitting means IH for 2 more years and it's still hell!

The link between sentences is very poor. Bear with it.

Something that happened Yesterday

Yesterday was the LEP lesson. We didn't have a proper room for the lesson because there Space was used up. So we went to the field for no apparent reason, there weren't many trackers there anyway. Since it was in the afternoon, and the J1's are still waiting for their O-level results, many of them are free, or at least I guess so. Shiehls was considered pretty lucky, there were only 2 girls who walked by and you know the we are easily distracted. That's why I usually take off my glasses when I go to the field. However, since we have to refer to the notes, there is no way I could take off my glasses or at least it would be absurd to do so during lesson time. We were talking about something called Bian Jiang, I wasn't really paying attention because I didn't understand and so we were joking about the HCI Chinese department having a teacher called Bian Jiang. Then we talked about those who said the most about Shiehls's luck. LOL! It's supposed to be slack anyway, and also the results just depends on the reflections that you hand in, so basically do it up to standard and then the A1's free. So let's hope that I get MSG 1.5! Still I hope that the CSE would be removed because it's inefficient. However, there is no reason to remove it as it's just full of muggers and brainiacs, and therefore none of them would have results shit-like enough to prove the programme unsuccessful.

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　　你好！别来无恙吧！我今天写博客的目的是要和大家分享今天所发生的事情，并且谈谈我的想法。
　　The class General Sec. bought some 50cent/piece paper today for the class notice board. Guess what? The 80 cent one that I bought was much better. It's truly black and also bigger than his. Therefore, the newly bought paper looked purple when put together with the black ones. We all know that purple is a gay colour. そうです。同性愛の色。So if you like purple or owns anything that's purple or etc. please remove and throw away all of them unless you are gay. Yes, gay. Meaning homosexual, regardless of gender. Go check the dictionary if you don't believe me. It would thus give a very bad impression of the class, and we give excuses of the notice board being purple and black by saying that it's part of creativity and being artistic. He also left a part uncovered. So I had to put the duty roster on top of it to save the trouble of pinning the paper on again. BTW, there's sectionals tomorrow, although I went on Thurs, so we get to go a bit later, but still has to go and so I have to stop writing now.
　　为了准备明天的测验，我就写到此搁笔。

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作者　启　　　
2007年1月18日

CSE

School has started, and it definitely means a lot of homework and other stuff. First thing is the CSE, which stands for Centre of Scholastic Excellence. Man, we all have to get MSG =<1.5 to get into the programme or =<2.0 with teacher's recommendation. Anyway, still puts a lot of pressure on us because I scraped 2.0 last year. OK, 1st day of school, I was nominated as the Fac. Sec. it's called this way but I am just known as the Fat Sec. or that's what everyone calls me and probably why I thrashed Chan Wei by 18 votes. Then I had a lot of administrative stuff to do and a little bit of homework. Worst thing is, we have 4 practices of band per week, 3 combined and 1 sectionals. Well, today we said we will reschedule it on Thursday but I am not sure if it would really materialise. Well, guess what, the Band introduced some new policy too. It's called the SYF contract, and no one can miss a single practice without a valid reason. If not, you are out. This is one new policy to scare the members away. First thing is because it's a boy school band. Yeah, therefore we are all ready to challenge the exco when we don't feel like coming. 1 thing is that they can punish us. They would be scaring at least half of us away, basically those who successfully find a new CCA. The rest would just not go. This is very serious. It's like we just get <20 newcomers each year. Simple thing is to cut down the number of practices but we would have to find a alternative solution on how to not lose out. Although there are so many new policies to test our patience, THERE ARE LIMITS TO TOLERANCE AND THEREFORE I WILL SHOW YOU ONE DAY THAT YOUR ACTIONS ARE WRONG! This is getting bad... Still, if you do anything against them, it just shows that you are unable to take up the challenge.