This time it's not me

Well, the constant failure this year isn't completely fue to my failing, but due to other factors such as people who want to trouble you. I was really pissed off by the kind of luck that I got at the project day judging. The judge combo was the worst ever combo of all, 2 bitches and one dog. The reason of failing us was the lack of result analysis, and that is definitely not a good reason to fail us. Well, it's indeed more accurate to triplicate experiments for more accuracy, but without the accuracy, the experiments aren't void either. The graph shown wasn't lacking anything too. It was a complete excuse to use such a reason to fail us, and I strongly believe that none of them had done a science project in the past. Zzz, just look at how old they are, SG didn't have so much funding on education 30 years back. Yes, the project has taken up much of my precious time, which could be used to do many other things. However, these pests do not know the hardships of us, and fail us with lame excuses. C'mon, I can come up with so many more if they were doing one.

Really really tired of such a system, which people who possess more knowledge but no brain get to evaluate the quality of others' work. There is no reason for me to emo anymore. It won't get me anywhere, and I would also thus fail as myself. I've realised the importance to change the world, to one which I will no longer be bombarded with crap, but how should I do it, is still a question which I would ponder about.

Rebellion, revolution are caused by the unsatisfactory of people, which only happen once in a while. Life should be peaceful, but it cannot always be, and to prepare for this unsatisfying moment, the world ought to be changed your way. I too feel the powerless feeling, the anger of a weakling, and one day I would grow strong, and defeat the pests that were once "stronger".

New popularity

Somehow the anime season dieded, and there is this new popularity of Korean Drama in my class. It's simply because Keith Goh watches it and the rest who have nothing better to do just sit around to watch the seemingly interesting drama. (If it wasn't interesting, why would someone be watching? LOL) Hmm, my parents just ordered E-City recently, and yesterday I had nothing to do so I turned to that channel since it's new. Coincidentally, it was 7pm and some random Korean Drama started, and it's the first episode too. My father tried to prevent me from watching, but there wasn't anything interesting on the other channels. So he was forced to change it back. Well, it doesn't seem to cater to adult audiences, and I would say it's like turning anime into real-life. (-.-"') But the death of the anime season had to be blamed on the recent period failing. There wasn't much to watch after H2O and Ef had more than one protagonist, so it was very disorganised and I didn't like it, thus stopping to watch anime for 2 weeks already. Maybe anime just isn't my thing. At AFA08 there were so many characters of random animes which I didn't know, and I doubt that they are interesting. (with the exception of code geass)

I guess it's just time for a change now, since I got bored of anime, so watch something else. The point is, I have absolutely no idea why so many people like Korean Drama. (Or is it just because those people around me are mostly teens and adults in their 20s?) People like my parents don't like those kind of drama, and prefer stuff like 潜伏. Everything would turn boring in the end I guess. So we have to keep changing to entertain ourselves.

More posts

This is another filler post I suppose. Anyway, I slacked through the first(second) week of term 3, still in the playing mood due to the timeslots cleared for H1N1. I can't seem to get myself to do something constructive, like learning new stuff. (Does memorising half of 三字经 count?) Term 3 shouldn't be a very busy term for me. Sec 1 I picked up anime and Weiqi in Term 3. Sec 2 I picked up Dota in Term 3. This year I have no idea of what I am going to do, but I know Term 3 is the only time that I can and bother to try something new. Surprisingly Longang was rather pleased with our 3.37, although he said that we had to get <3. I have completely no idea of how much ACE I have for each subject, but I feel that they aren't gonna be maxed. OP's worse, I tried speaking up, but besides being lame and saying all those stuff in our notes, there really isn't anything else to say. The OP system encourages people to speak up, but in a science class, there is only one answer and I feel that there is really no point repeating what the teacher said just to get a few marks. It's FREE, but I don't want it. Now in a humanes or language class, I don't really get a chance to talk besides crapping. Who can tell whether an IR would be successful if they do not know the mindset of people? And all the answers provided by those LAME people are simply economy failing so IR also fail or cannot earn money from locals and stuff. Very lame answers which do not have a deep level of thinking and investigation. If this was to turn into an English exposition, I don't know how many people would be marked down because the teachers says that they are assuming. Even the casinoes in Macau and Vegas aren't really successful because the economy is doing well. The police in Macau is already used to people suiciding and it's not uncommon to see people getting rescued almost immediately after they jump. If it weren't for these people to "sponsor" the casinoes, Macau would have died a long time ago. Hence, if we were to get OP for these lame stuff, might as well abolish the stupid system completely. What is said isn't even convincing enough. Chances are hard to come by, but when one comes, how we make use of it is the key to domination.

Loss of domination

I am already feeling the impact of the loss of domination, in whichever area that I once owned in. This year's SMO results aren't very satisfying for me, and my Jap compo just got below 12/15 for the first time. I do agree that I am slack, but last year I wasn't much better and life was a lot smoother compared to this year other than Gwee Hana screwing me after every Geog test. I still strongly believes that what I am doing is good for myself. If now is not the time to specialise, then when is the time? Furthermore, specialisation means the removal of other stuff because time is limited. Hence, I see myself having 2 Humanes and English. Humanes aren't really a problem, but as for English, I don't find it very useful to me. I don't really want to master English too well, and having such an intensive curriculum for English is simply because Singapore follows the British education system and prepares us for the "top" universities. These so-called "top" universities claims themselves to be globally recognised, but who bothers to not recognise them and on what basis are they ranked top? FYI, "ranked top" suggests the presence of a ranking system, and I don't think such a ranking system is recognised. Furthermore, the amount of information learnt in university aren't gonna be of much use after you graduate, and eventually you would forget. I can guarantee that at least 75% of people go to university for their degrees, and out of these 75%, there is this group of people who go to "top" universities to get the "globally recognised" degrees. As a student, I feel the importance of the "globally recognised" degrees giving me an advantage in finding a job because not many people know such an SOPHISTICATED school of thought. But if I ever become an employer in the future, I really won't know who to hire unless I know them well (situation in China). I am not saying that the we should all adopt the China system. If so, employers can spend time in cafes with the shortlisted candidates for like 1 or 2 weeks. Then, they can get to know who to employ, but then the cafe's profits would have gone up. If I can earn more by working in a cafe, just by preparing coffee and tea, then there is no need for us to study since primary one. I am losing my dominance because of Singapore's screwed education system, which cannot select the right stuff for us to do. Getting penalised for assumptions in an exposition just isn't logical. Yes, you are the teacher, but you are still in no position to penalise me like such. Just like how Grace Chua cannot answer my question of assumed assumptions last year when I got 19/30. A conducive learning environment is important, and I can guarantee all that SG isn't a place for me to study.

A Break

I couldn't be more pissed than failing all the time. Everything is going down the drain. Maybe that got to do with me having a teacher called longang. Longang, everything goes in, nothing comes out, beware of dropping things inside. Haha. That was lame. It would be great if life could be smoother, and it certainly aren't gonna be if I have to abide to all my school rules. In the past, I coped with all the stress because there was a sense of accomplishment at the end, but constant failing is gonna turn you emo, and probably leading to suicide. Of course I won't be crazy enough to do that yet, but I seriously need a break from all those retarded English and IH homework. There was this observation which I made during the e-learning week, which is that neighbourhood school students go home at like 1.30pm. WTF!! I AM FREAKING TIRING MYSELF OUT FOR 12 HOURS A DAY AND PEOPLE OF THE SAME AGE GET TO GO HOME AND SLACK AT 1.30PM. Of course, I can't really blame it on the school. I didn't go to HP because I know that I wouldn't like and would die of such an intense curriculum (doesn't seem to fruitful despite its intensiveness). The problem lies with this new teacher called longang, who likes to involve us in politics, especially Singapore politics. If Singaporeans ever get a say in local politics, the sun would rise from the west, the sun will revolve around the earth, and earth would revolve around the moon. Anyway, why do something that won't do you any good? That's like totally based on imagination, but has got no application in real-life unlike philosophy. SG is an Asian country, and how many Asian countries have English as their core language? Well, if you are expecting us to go to European or North American countries and involve in their politics, then SG government is gonna screw you. There are times when there's a better and easier way to do stuff, and there are times when you need to do things the hard way. SG people don't know how to identify these times.

This is another vent-your-anger-online post. Vent your anger on my tagboard if you disagree.

Comments about H2O

One of the best anime made from a visual novel I would say, comparing to those which I watched like SHUFFLE!, Prism Ark, and CLANNAD I think. First thing is because the protagonist is NORMAL, unlike Rin who had no balls and Hayate who was kiddish. CLANNAD was too peaceful. I liked the setting in H₂O, and the fued between Hayami and the village, which intensified after the younger generation began to accept her. Everything simply went wrong the moment they turned right, and it was nice to see the characters struggling through everyday of their lives. Last part was rather similar to SHUFFLE! I think, the protagonist had to accept reality. I felt lucky that it wasn't sadistic. Sadism might result in more emo-ness, considering that most who watch anime are already the emo people, give them one sad anime and they go commit suicide. Now I am still stuck on what to watch, but maybe find something to refresh myself a bit before finishing AIR.

Very short post, but I didn't want to be a spoiler because the story was really nice to me. The OP and ED suited the setting. On par with Code Geass.

Aganist tests?

The 2 B3s which I got recently is rather annoying. When I thought that my MSG could finally get better, things turned for the worse. Not blaming anyone but YapS didn't really explain the centripetal acceleration thing properly. I know that it is constant, but why do you have a velocity-time graph of a 1-D world and a acceleration-time graph of a 2-D one? The other part was because of carelessness. I didn't really expect to explain in specific detail for some questions because of the number of lines given and another reason was because when you do maths you don't have the prove the theory once more before carrying on to the next step. If spamming is the technique, we are simply saying quantity=quality. So in the end, it's just a matter of what satisfies you.

However, from Hon's point of view, we are only good with MSG 1 and 0 demerit points and stuff, and without them you get kicked out of this and that and don't get OSA and no overseas trip and blah blah... Too long a list. Not being exam-smart does have quite serious consequences. Hence, I get the feeling that teachers are EVIL because it somehow seems like they want to trick you or something, like all those people who backstab you all out of a sudden, by giving you a simple test and giving excuses to deduct your marks in the end. But I really need to find a way to counter such a problem because it is really retarded to score badly because you simply didn't answer the question in the "right" way. Very sian term of the mega-phailing. Hopefully next term don't screw up anymore.

Just really really tired

It's good to pause a bit and think about the usefulness of what you have done. It's only then that I realised that, "Hey! There is really no point in mugging for an exam but I have to mug." It's actually not compulsory, but in an Asian society, this is what is required. You have to be the best, but how best can we be in school? When people have different strengths, it is wrong to say that those who are weak in a certain subject are retarded because that certain subject pulls down their overall MSG. On the other hand, it is wrong to say that muggers rule. In actual fact, people have been influenced since young that good results = everything. However, it took me 10 years to realise that no matter how great your results were in school, they may only be due to the 25% chance of a difficult MCQ question. Moreover, good results aren't gonna earn you a living. Despite the fact that it is certainly the case, you do have to master everything taught in school, but not to the point that you get penalised for using the word "vibrate" to describe fluid movement when the teacher's English standard is already CMI. Therefore, now I am dedicating more of my time to Longang, but not all, because the filter of usefulness is still there. What's the point of doing a Paul's Wheel when you can have everything in your head already, and Paul's wheel is only listing what you have in your head on a piece of paper, which is harming the environment and also insulting yourself, for the human brain has unlimited storage. However, there is also another reason why I mug for the tests. To show muggers that they are wrong. There is obviously a distinction between a mugger and a real pro. A real pro doesn't have to study to get his A1 because he has superficial memory to memorise everything that the teacher said in class, which unfortuantely I do not possess when it vcomes to anything besides numbers. (That just contradicts my point, I can simply enumerate everything which I have learnt to help remember, but oh well)

Referring to 老子's 《道德经》, there is a clear distinction between outside and inside. However, in any kind of society, it is practically impossible to become HOLY. If your want to do that, you need some fame, otherwise you are dead by now. Furthermore, it is also considered as a waste of resources if one goes to school and does not make use of the skills taught.

Haiz... I am off the point a long time ago. Anyway, I am really tired of getting good grades just for a nice result slip as the result slip is practically useless. The Canadian educational system may be great in a sense, but different people have different personalities, and ultimately the thing boils down to differentiating examinees and students.

Former Swang (Swine) Flu

I didn't really expect to be so free at such a point of time during the year, especially with my last two years' afternoon's being tightly packed. Sec 1: Band thrice (twice) + 3rd lang twice, otherwise occupied by sleeping due to low work efficiency then. Sec 2: Band thrice + 3rd lang twice + IVP once. Sec 3 Jan-Apr: Math Olympiad twice + Band twice + 3rd lang once + Project meeting once. Sec 3 Apr-Now: Mega O.R. for band due to various reasons + public holiday + CCA holiday. ( -.-"') (I am expecting people to tag "OH, you are just giving excuses not to come") Therefore, I should be much more free than Term 1. However, despite cutting down my DotA time, I wasn't able to complete some of my homework on time. There may be an increased workload but I didn't realise it. However, it is quite a good time for be to buck up slightly on my ACE, though I really don't know when would I finish those assignments. It's like your ACE would naturally max out in Term 3 for some reason, therefore I haven't done anything until now. If Longang Chan stop spamming us with homework and gives us some ACE assignments, I am sure that my English Ace would be 10 by now.

I really hope Swang Flu would stabilise soon, because getting too used to slacking isn't good. Once you slack, you slack more, and slacking time, though increasing linearly, total amount of time wasted increases exponentially.

Failing

I am simply posting this due to my blog history. 2007 (70), 2008 (24), 2009(7). Last year was really a failure, but to tell the truth, last year was a rather successdul year in terms of school work. No more sleeping at 1am and stuff. Personally, I dislike the large amount of homework given by the teachers last year because I was never able to do them properly, writing crap answers and stuff, whereas this year I was doing my homework with a bit more effort. For some reason, I am somehow determined to reach the level of true trilingualism, not simply Can Make It for all. However, English haven't been improving much lately, just simply couldn't remember all the words in comprehension, but still improving due to the topics taught by Longang.

Chinese would be slightly faster I suppose, because I feel that the teachers really have a way of improving our Chinese in Sec 3, unlike ShiehLS who simply spammed us with compo and expect us to improve. I believe that we may not be behind the schools under the Express Stream, but somehow I feel that because there aren't many times which we actually get to use the words that we learn and hence we forget.

Japanese? Na, last years super mugging gone down the drain, but not 100%, I still learnt some stuff, just that I don't realise it, probably gonna do some light mugging every now and then.

Then it's math. The hard part is already here, and I don't stand a lot of chance at Geometry anymore, worse for Number Theory, probably need to read more online Geometric stuff, then can get the gist of it.

Yesterday was spent slacking, today too. Tomorrow is bucking up day, read AC Nation and do math I suppose. Somehow I get the feeling that there is more work to be done, or maybe just because I am having extra time after cutting down on the dota matches on Sat and Sun. Hope you aren't bored to death by this.

For my animaniac friends, I am currently at episode 20 of Clannad now, gonna finish it by next week.