Wrong timing again!

You teachers hit the wrong timing again. We were rather free last week, and I find myself being so busy now. So why am I blogging? I blog when I feel too ecstatic, depressed or pressurized. Shiehls tells us to do the Chinese file now, and with Grace Chua's feature story undone, I feel so tired of all this crap, that do not count in my results or benefit me in anyway, but yet it's not me if I don't complete them. If you ask me the root of the problem, I would say that most of the work come from Shiehls, who marks them blindly, giving SG a tick for writing crap. So why am I doing all these homework? We all know there's something wrong, but we don't know what to do. We can't challenge authority, and yet we can't be smart. We were taught not to take back what we say, and yet Shiehls does! So anyway, we are still trapped in the loop, which is so not IP like, but Animal Farm under Napoleon's rule.

Luck

I was never prepared for any history test last year, other than EOYs, scraping A1s throughout the whole year. This is the first time I really studied for a retarded class test, and guess what, when you are prepared, prepare to be careless, that's what happens to me when I study for an IH test. It's like whenever I study, either the other half of the syllabus is tested or I screw up somewhere, wouldn't cause me to fail, but getting C6 is total shit compared to others. It's like the IH tests don't go my way. The Math and Science papers can't be screwed up because of the unlikeliness of misinterpreting a question, but it just happens. It's like having a 95% accuracy, but this other 5% just hits the most important part. It's like almost impossible, looking at the 95% accuracy, and that question among the other questions. However, with just that 0.01% chance, it's possible. Therefore, there are so many skydivers with 2 spoilt parachutes. So it's just the luck you see, and in life, it's like no matter how unlikely a good thing would happen, there is this weird high chance of it hitting right on the dot, just see the chances of winning ToTo, and yet there are winners. So who to blame? I say forget it, it's only 2% of final year and I shall revise for Geog, which I don't know whether I can make a comeback for, but it's likely because it's unlikely.

Today's Tuesday

Oh well, you can't blame it on anyone when LEP gets shifted to Tuesday. But when you are told that both things are compulsory, then which one should you go for? Well, I was the only one who went for MOP, I wouldn't say that I am right, but usually it depends on your level of enthisiasm, which is why I never go for Humanities Seminars or stuff related to that. I wouldn't say that I have no interest in LEP, but I think I can just copy notes from my classmates and somehow it's like you will forget most things if they aren't used often or recorded somewhere. The MOP test was today anyway, and I only knew how to do 1 question. I would say that I am not good in the theoretical part and somehow we weren't taught to do one of the questions. I'm not sure about the other but I think it's a bit weird as it was the other variable that actually mattered. In other words, since the question didn't state that the other variable must be an integer, it could be anything and thus unlikely to have the same answer after the division. Maybe I should just admit that I am not as good, but weren't they supposed to test us on things that are taught? That's the point of a test anyway. The current education system is still focusing on how to score well for a test and the teachers just blames it on the students and call them incapable. The meaning of a test is now gone. However, it's not like a test makes everything perfect. We learn techniques of a test, but not the answers. Like we are taught how to score well for a literature test by just memorising all the facts that are taught and apply them in the test. It's useless, we would be totally stunned if we were to be given any unseen poetry. So just blame it on our teachers when you don't score well for a test.

Must post!

My busy times are over, at least for this term. I was thinking about the comments that the other Marching Bands made, especially our only opponent, who said that they were confident of beating us. So I was wondering what was their motive. It's like if you were the best, you would want to hide something, but if you are not very good, you may want to play the game using psychology. The point is, people who think more will not be scared, but so are others who are determined to win. I may say that those who are determined may be less likely to screw up on the actual day, but those who think more have their own advantages as well.

So what was the point of saying that you are determined to win? Nice try, we are called a book-smart school, but we definitely have the ability to analyze before we learn. Nothing has a 100% accuracy, but we somehow should act according to our opponent's IQ. Usually on someone normal, reverse psychology works, but on someone with high IQ, it's hard to tell whether to use that as well. You only have a 50% chance.

We were also talking about charisma, basically about Zhang Yi who got famous recently for some strange reason which I don't know. I think it's rather useful, but can anyone truly define what's that? And as I've mentioned, you only have 50% chance.

Sometimes, you have to trust your instincts, which does not come from the mind. I can say that I am lucky, as my instincts work 70% of the time. But again, logic totally pwns feelings. So what would you do if you don't know anything but was forced to make a decision? I go to the internet... (Basically because I can't think of anything else to write)

Tomorrow is a holiday!

Thanks to the seniors, tomorrow's a holiday. Basically I find it meaningless for us as we didn't work hard anyway, but most probably it's to let the teachers have some rest. It just seems like another labour day, when people are recognised for their hard work and thus allowed to have some rest. I do agree that the lower sec are just a bunch of slackers, mostly anyway. There are people who need this day of rest. I also feel that maybe the school holidays aren't so good. We should have some more days and holidays in each term. Maybe Sat, Sun and Wed so that we won't feel so stressed on weekdays and not so bored during the holidays. I've been slacking recently, not doing IH homework, which I think is useless, especialy in Singapore context. However, this causes a sense of emptiness inside me. Like when your life is too good, you feel that you should have accomplished something, although you can slack if you want.

To think of it in such a way, we may not achieve such good grades a few years later when it comes to the 94 batch. It's like we aren't all-rounded people but we win competitions because of our talents in specific areas. I just simply feel that we can't be concentrating on so many things in life as we can do much better if we just concentrated on just one things. However, the general public always think differently and that's why it's more difficult for any friendship to start for me. Basically, I just think that it's rather dull to be the same as others, even if it means that I am not good, I would still be unique.

Camp

I just came back from band camp, and I slept well, so I am rather energetic right now. We were totally pwned by TK. They have so many complicated formations, and they danced when they marched. I seriously feel that our band lack some creativity, it's like we are following everything we were told to do, without any suggestions or flexibility. However, what we have now is probably enough.

It's rather sad that I received some pathetic results when I came back. LEP pulled me to 2.75, or I would have gotten 3. The results are at their extreme ends this time, so the average is somewhere in the middle. The teachers are also to blame as the normal school work somehow had a heavier weightage and some of the marking schemes changed. I would like to say that I am feeling tired of having so many commitments and feel like slacking like the others. However, all of them are meaningful and I don't see the point of quitting, which means I am still being challenged. At this rate, I should be going to a non-CSE class. It doesn't matter anyway, I am already having some doubts about that as quite a number of the seniors have quitted. But not quitting means IH for 2 more years and it's still hell!

The link between sentences is very poor. Bear with it.

Something that happened Yesterday

Yesterday was the LEP lesson. We didn't have a proper room for the lesson because there Space was used up. So we went to the field for no apparent reason, there weren't many trackers there anyway. Since it was in the afternoon, and the J1's are still waiting for their O-level results, many of them are free, or at least I guess so. Shiehls was considered pretty lucky, there were only 2 girls who walked by and you know the we are easily distracted. That's why I usually take off my glasses when I go to the field. However, since we have to refer to the notes, there is no way I could take off my glasses or at least it would be absurd to do so during lesson time. We were talking about something called Bian Jiang, I wasn't really paying attention because I didn't understand and so we were joking about the HCI Chinese department having a teacher called Bian Jiang. Then we talked about those who said the most about Shiehls's luck. LOL! It's supposed to be slack anyway, and also the results just depends on the reflections that you hand in, so basically do it up to standard and then the A1's free. So let's hope that I get MSG 1.5! Still I hope that the CSE would be removed because it's inefficient. However, there is no reason to remove it as it's just full of muggers and brainiacs, and therefore none of them would have results shit-like enough to prove the programme unsuccessful.

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　　你好！别来无恙吧！我今天写博客的目的是要和大家分享今天所发生的事情，并且谈谈我的想法。
　　The class General Sec. bought some 50cent/piece paper today for the class notice board. Guess what? The 80 cent one that I bought was much better. It's truly black and also bigger than his. Therefore, the newly bought paper looked purple when put together with the black ones. We all know that purple is a gay colour. そうです。同性愛の色。So if you like purple or owns anything that's purple or etc. please remove and throw away all of them unless you are gay. Yes, gay. Meaning homosexual, regardless of gender. Go check the dictionary if you don't believe me. It would thus give a very bad impression of the class, and we give excuses of the notice board being purple and black by saying that it's part of creativity and being artistic. He also left a part uncovered. So I had to put the duty roster on top of it to save the trouble of pinning the paper on again. BTW, there's sectionals tomorrow, although I went on Thurs, so we get to go a bit later, but still has to go and so I have to stop writing now.
　　为了准备明天的测验，我就写到此搁笔。

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作者　启　　　
2007年1月18日

CSE

School has started, and it definitely means a lot of homework and other stuff. First thing is the CSE, which stands for Centre of Scholastic Excellence. Man, we all have to get MSG =<1.5 to get into the programme or =<2.0 with teacher's recommendation. Anyway, still puts a lot of pressure on us because I scraped 2.0 last year. OK, 1st day of school, I was nominated as the Fac. Sec. it's called this way but I am just known as the Fat Sec. or that's what everyone calls me and probably why I thrashed Chan Wei by 18 votes. Then I had a lot of administrative stuff to do and a little bit of homework. Worst thing is, we have 4 practices of band per week, 3 combined and 1 sectionals. Well, today we said we will reschedule it on Thursday but I am not sure if it would really materialise. Well, guess what, the Band introduced some new policy too. It's called the SYF contract, and no one can miss a single practice without a valid reason. If not, you are out. This is one new policy to scare the members away. First thing is because it's a boy school band. Yeah, therefore we are all ready to challenge the exco when we don't feel like coming. 1 thing is that they can punish us. They would be scaring at least half of us away, basically those who successfully find a new CCA. The rest would just not go. This is very serious. It's like we just get <20 newcomers each year. Simple thing is to cut down the number of practices but we would have to find a alternative solution on how to not lose out. Although there are so many new policies to test our patience, THERE ARE LIMITS TO TOLERANCE AND THEREFORE I WILL SHOW YOU ONE DAY THAT YOUR ACTIONS ARE WRONG! This is getting bad... Still, if you do anything against them, it just shows that you are unable to take up the challenge.

That's not enough

Yesterday was the Sec 4 farewell dinner... Just for the Band Sec4s. I wonder why the school subsidized us though. Due to the fact that it wasn't for the whole level and the school is independent. Anyway, each of us paid $13 and the school paid $30. That is totally not worth it. Although it was a buffet restaurant, there is no reason for it to have only 2 choices of Ice-cream, which both tasted VERY bad. There weren't any other good food either, or at least something out of the ordinary. I can simply just go to any hawker centre in Singapore and find whatever they have. So anyway, blame the retarded Drum Major for that. Oh yeah, before that, I went to Bukit Timah Plaza to get something for the seniors. Guess what? I just bought 2 comic books which cost $2.80 each. Well, although it is cheap. It's definitely not shit. Products from China are all cheap, and doesn't lose out in quality. Then went back to school and walked a few times around the school to kill time and then went to the bloody expensive restaurant in the bloody expensive hotel. I waited for like 45 minutes or so... For the seniors and the others which were late. Well, they weren't really late because that bloody Drum Major changed the venue. The Drum Major is getting all the blame... And said farewell. I ate a LOT of food after that, although I didn't eat any cakes because I wasn't really interested in them and wanted to save the space in my stomach for some other stuff that are still worth eating. I got the dizzy feeling on the way home for that. It was really sad, because what I remembered was that whatever I've done is not enough. After being top in the 3rd lang class for such a long time, even top for Jap in HCI, it was pointless. There are so many others that are better and it's really sad that I do not have someone competing with me directly. I needed the full-mark luck, which was gone from probably 1 and 1/4 years ago. However, it was also partly due to the few tests that I flunk. Next year would be a different thing. There is no such thing called "fail the first test" because I have already done the basics, and do not just abusing my brain like the beginning. Next year there is also this CSE test. Which means that I'll have to study really hard. When I mean hard, I mean hard. Not smart. No point studying smart for History and Geography. It just depends on whoever that remembers all the facts. As said before, it's brain abuse but still have to do it for one more year. The plans are having English B3 and Literature or Humanities A2. That's the easiest way because I am not so bad at Lit and Humanities. Well, school's starting and i have definitely not slept enough.