Back to otaku days ~~~

I think I am getting used to crying.

Ignorance

While the internet may hold vast amounts of information, it is not as omnipotent as many have described. The post-enlistment boredom has pushed me to the national library, hoping to expand my world of thought and render it more intellectually satisfying. To my horror, despite the advent of the internet and the proliferation of ebooks, much of what is useful but unpopular remains in the inconspicuous books on a library shelf. This book named "Freakonomics" which I've just completed yesterday inspired me more than any of my GP teachers. Looking back at the past two years of JC life, I can probably say that school was a total waste of time. The content covered in H2 is too basic and misrepresents the content covered in university. While I do not advocate adding more depth, I probably could have accomplished more if the time which I used to attend school was used for self-learning instead. It is certainly regrettable that I am exposed to such knowledge at such a late point in my life, and I would probably never know about it if I didn't serve NS.

Silence

This is a late post. I have nothing to complain about my results despite not performing up to my expectations. Looking back at my 12 years of educations, there was nothing which I seeked more than pride. However, the feeling of pride no longer came from prestige and academic achievements as such accomplishments gradually became meaningless. Wishing for another fateful encounter.

The path ahead

Promenade today marks the end of my JC life. The final occasion to take photos with my friends turned out to be a messy and empty one. Why is everyone rushing to take photos with everyone else? Personally I thought that there was ample opportunity to take photos with all of your friends after the event, so it would be more appropriate for us to sit down and chat about our experience in the past two years. However, it turned out to be a disaster. Most were walking about and taking photos with one another. The emcee was completely ignored. The food was left barely touched at many tables, and the waiters and waitresses had to distribute them in order to serve the next dish (and go home earlier). I myself was left at the table and also decided to walk around since there was simply no one to talk to in such an atmosphere. Well, I guess I shouldn't expect much from a Singaporean JC Promenade. 

Now about the path ahead. This is the first time that I am making a decision for myself. My parents look from the practical point of view and tells me to take a course that is related to a career which I might specialise in the future. However, I think otherwise. Being practical has its limits. As we face the constantly changing vicissitudes of the 21st century, it is hard to determine the lucrative market of tomorrow. If I were really after money, I would just ignore my interests and simply become a doctor. However, 12 years of education has taught me that life isn't about success or money. It's about living the way you want. As an abstract person, I am contented to live in a world of thought, so I think I should be learning something such as the natural sciences. 

On my way home today there was this little bit about relationships. While I do want to get into one, I've persuaded myself into thinking that relationships are forbidden in JC. Not because I'm too young, but because there's too much uncertainty in my future and geographical barriers are likely to arise. I personally prefer not to be bounded to a place/organisation for 10 years in a rapidly changing world. Adaptability is the key to survival and depriving myself of that is not a wise decision. Moving on to the next phase of life on Thursday. My view to life might probably change. But as a cynic who thinks that life is harsh, that's rather unlikely.

苦しい...

でも、進むしかない。

Disappointment

I really can't understand why people around me are complaining that they are sad, especially those who claim to have screwed up but top the cohort. Everyone is going through the same torture, and there are people who feel much worse albeit greater effort. So STFU and accept the fact that "life still goes on".

失败

首次尝到徒劳无功的滋味，感觉万分失落。虽然有人身为前车之鉴，确保我仍会坚强以对，但在此关键时刻，是否还有弥补的契机？

Wasted Time

Spent 4 days reading SAO. (Very cute ^_^) Somehow it reminds me that life isn't so sad despite having to go through As. I'll probably study for some time before printing out the next Chapter. (Pirated version has many errors 0_o)

Sword Art Online

So now I finally know what's on the writing pad which I gave to GC. Printing Chapter 1 out in school on Wed ^_^. Don't know why TZH took so much time looking for volumes of SAO in bookstores when they are readily available online.