No more exemptions for u guys

I am rather happy that I got exempted for 2 subjects. Max is 6 and many of my ex-classmates who got 5 exemptions last year drop to 4 or even 2 (I am niaoing CW of course). Serves those IH losers right! IH is another subject that is really damn pathetic. You have to write according to the teachers' expectations. In IHC, it is alright that the evaluation of sources have certain expectations because it is important to state clearly about what you are writing. However, plainly spamming facts in the essay is considered as explaining? Of course writing another line "Hence, we can see that A(noun) is B(adjective)" is really quite useless, but most adjectives co-exist, which brings in the importance of analogy in essays. It is impossible to say something is good or bad if we can't find something better or worse, but it is not easy to find analogies. There are certain things which I strongly believe is the right way to do things, which is learnt from all the model essays that could not answer the question which I am thinking about when I wrote the essay. How exactly can I say that A is B by just stating facts. Of course we all do have historical hindsight, but no one can determine what should and should not exist in any generation. Anyway, I am glad that my none of my friends are gonna be staying at home on any day during the EOYs due to the higher papers, and when I can finally throw away my humanities, it would be a more advantageous and easy life for me.

So What?

It been so long that only until this year which I have asked the question so what. I have been very competitive with my personality throughout the years. However, recently when thing don't turn my way despite a significant amount of hard work, the question of "so what?" came in. I do agree that it is totally pointless to excel in school but unable to find a job in the future, but without our grades, we can't possibly get into a good university. This is where the "development" and "consolidation" comes in. In my opinion, consolidation is only needed at the most important times. In other words, to learn to use your knowledge in an exam, which is why I haven't gave a damn about the humanities for quite a long time. There is no reason for me to ace all the exams and forget everything I've learnt soon after. I would rather fail all of them and get one subject mastered (<= already achieved). So now, my next goal is to get 2 subject mastered. I have no idea why but I somehow do well in chemistry although I haven't memorised any concept fully before sitting for the test. Hence, I have decided that I would learn my Chem well too, not saying that I am very interested or anything (like the logical analysis though, but not so sure for organic chem). Back to my point, the question of "So what?" demanded a very important answer from myself - the thing that I really really wanted in life. Even if I had made a great contribution to anything, do I really want that? Looking at all the successful people, I don't even get a slightest bit of inspiration that I should be like them as it is simply not what I want. The idea of HOLYNESS comes in then. It is indeed good not to be so pragmatic, and the emphasis on the inner strength is what most people should consider, and by far the most favorable choice for me. Working in the society is just for one's livelihood. Goals are important in life, but there is rarely a goal that really brings about a difference in life, which is why all my achievement in the past looked so useless right now. I do have to konw my stuff now though, otherwise I would be wasting my time.

Definition please

Very clearly, I have boxed the ironic part for you. Finally, I am posting something fun after a long stream of emo posts. Even the guy who said he "hates people with poor grades" qualify. I think we need to redefine what is good academic results.

n00b people who fail

Well, I am partly regretting that I got into SC1, hoping to have better physics teachers, but unfortunately, those who teach the CSE are failures. I am rather unsatified with my A2 for physics this term, especially when I should be getting my A1. (I never mentioned that I should be getting A1 for the previous terms, I just said that the answer keys are screwed.) I know that my English isn't good, and obviously that led to be losing quite a lot of marks for many explanation questions. However, it's not like I don't understand them, it's just that no one understands my high level of thinking. C'mon, the question was addressing the case of hearing loss among youths and obviously it is an assumption to say that youths play loud music from their MP3 for long periods of time, despite it being the case because it wasn't mentioned in the comprehension. I would believe that those people in Singapore who choose to be a teacher are those who aren't able to get a job without the government (but obviously there are others who are just lazy). My point is: If what you are teaching isn't your area of talent, then don't teach, you won't be respected that way. Physics is a very mathemetical based subject and if physics teachers can't prove their answers with math, anything is just an assumption, no matter how logical it seems. I do believe that teachers ought to show that they possess more knowledge, but showing their superiority to students despite themselves making a mistake is not something that we would want to see them doing. In fact, I was rather pissed of at that big cross on my paper when I actually provided a prove for the increase in lateral displacement of the ray when the angle of incidence increases. Apparently, she viewed it as total crap without using her brain. There are too many times I get pissed off at people who have no brain or people who have brains which do not work properly. This term's physics test is simply another of the countless examples that I've been through and should be tolerated as well. Moreover, taking the holy path requires tolerance for this kind of unjust treatment. However, I really do wonder if such things are still possible when the Europeans countries as well as America has turned this world into a pragmatic country, where there is so much competition, so much work to do that had lead to the loss of many traditional Asian values that had been valued for 5 millenniums. もうこんな事を忍耐することになれた。でも、僕は将来この世界を僕が好きなように変える。そんな人を真っ暗の世界に捨てる。

止んだ

It's a long time since I blogged, which was partly due to the tests and mostly due to the internet connection of the boarding school which fails. However, it's the convenience that is the most important and thus I should just endure it. I've realised that I have lost my target in life, having no goal. Not that I don't really have one, but just that small goals are too insignificant. In other words, I have really thought about my future thoroughly. I don't know why 3 is such a nice number, but I couldn't be bothered a single bit about what I am going to do in the future. Hence, my ace this year is also a bit screwed. I gotten used to it. One year of hard work to accumulate those points, and one year later, everything disappears. (Btw, the subject with the second most number of ace is English) I did feel that getting prizes for math competitions are much more meaningful, but the failure after SMO really made me doubt it's usefulness again. I didn't make much progress in anything this year, which was similar to Sec 1 though, but I probably didn't realise it as I was emoing for most of the year, and everything turned out fine in the end. I wouldn't say that this stop in my life is because I have grown into an age when I slack, but simply because it's Sec 3. C'mon last year's 1.22 was a form of accomplishment, but this year... Even if I've gotton 1.1 (1.0 is impossible for me), it's meaningless to be a Chan Wei and show off, niaoing others for their 2.xx. I do have more important stuff to do this year, compared to the ace. I have no time due to the 2 extra subjects. It's stupid that they can merge humanes ace but not science :O. Btw, ace is meaningless because I won't go further into any topic unless I am interested in it, which is a screwed way that defys the laws of nature. Back to the point, I have no interest in doing business. It's no fun earning money, not that I am saying that other jobs are fun. But imagining yourself idling at home and free money comes in. Very fun! I can't even spend my Saturday properly. I can't go out because it's too time-comsuming, neither can I stay at home because I don't have much work, and stones more than half the day. Well, we probably need to consider one step further now. So what even if I've found a job? Life still has to go on. It doesn't make a difference because I would just depend on it for survival. Why can't just some new school of thought come up to solve all the problems caused by the competition among the different countries. All the Confucious stuff and Taoism can't be applied nowadays (blame the Europeans and Americans for that, they led us here). Time had always been given to me to ponder about all the stuff in the world, but who the hell cares with all the entertainment? They might as well go watch a movie for some "bonding" (I don't really understand the meaning of that). I've wasted quite a lot of my time due to the lack of sleep. If I can get over sleeping problems, then I believe that there would be a higher level of analysis in anything.

This time it's not me

Well, the constant failure this year isn't completely fue to my failing, but due to other factors such as people who want to trouble you. I was really pissed off by the kind of luck that I got at the project day judging. The judge combo was the worst ever combo of all, 2 bitches and one dog. The reason of failing us was the lack of result analysis, and that is definitely not a good reason to fail us. Well, it's indeed more accurate to triplicate experiments for more accuracy, but without the accuracy, the experiments aren't void either. The graph shown wasn't lacking anything too. It was a complete excuse to use such a reason to fail us, and I strongly believe that none of them had done a science project in the past. Zzz, just look at how old they are, SG didn't have so much funding on education 30 years back. Yes, the project has taken up much of my precious time, which could be used to do many other things. However, these pests do not know the hardships of us, and fail us with lame excuses. C'mon, I can come up with so many more if they were doing one.

Really really tired of such a system, which people who possess more knowledge but no brain get to evaluate the quality of others' work. There is no reason for me to emo anymore. It won't get me anywhere, and I would also thus fail as myself. I've realised the importance to change the world, to one which I will no longer be bombarded with crap, but how should I do it, is still a question which I would ponder about.

Rebellion, revolution are caused by the unsatisfactory of people, which only happen once in a while. Life should be peaceful, but it cannot always be, and to prepare for this unsatisfying moment, the world ought to be changed your way. I too feel the powerless feeling, the anger of a weakling, and one day I would grow strong, and defeat the pests that were once "stronger".

New popularity

Somehow the anime season dieded, and there is this new popularity of Korean Drama in my class. It's simply because Keith Goh watches it and the rest who have nothing better to do just sit around to watch the seemingly interesting drama. (If it wasn't interesting, why would someone be watching? LOL) Hmm, my parents just ordered E-City recently, and yesterday I had nothing to do so I turned to that channel since it's new. Coincidentally, it was 7pm and some random Korean Drama started, and it's the first episode too. My father tried to prevent me from watching, but there wasn't anything interesting on the other channels. So he was forced to change it back. Well, it doesn't seem to cater to adult audiences, and I would say it's like turning anime into real-life. (-.-"') But the death of the anime season had to be blamed on the recent period failing. There wasn't much to watch after H2O and Ef had more than one protagonist, so it was very disorganised and I didn't like it, thus stopping to watch anime for 2 weeks already. Maybe anime just isn't my thing. At AFA08 there were so many characters of random animes which I didn't know, and I doubt that they are interesting. (with the exception of code geass)

I guess it's just time for a change now, since I got bored of anime, so watch something else. The point is, I have absolutely no idea why so many people like Korean Drama. (Or is it just because those people around me are mostly teens and adults in their 20s?) People like my parents don't like those kind of drama, and prefer stuff like 潜伏. Everything would turn boring in the end I guess. So we have to keep changing to entertain ourselves.

More posts

This is another filler post I suppose. Anyway, I slacked through the first(second) week of term 3, still in the playing mood due to the timeslots cleared for H1N1. I can't seem to get myself to do something constructive, like learning new stuff. (Does memorising half of 三字经 count?) Term 3 shouldn't be a very busy term for me. Sec 1 I picked up anime and Weiqi in Term 3. Sec 2 I picked up Dota in Term 3. This year I have no idea of what I am going to do, but I know Term 3 is the only time that I can and bother to try something new. Surprisingly Longang was rather pleased with our 3.37, although he said that we had to get <3. I have completely no idea of how much ACE I have for each subject, but I feel that they aren't gonna be maxed. OP's worse, I tried speaking up, but besides being lame and saying all those stuff in our notes, there really isn't anything else to say. The OP system encourages people to speak up, but in a science class, there is only one answer and I feel that there is really no point repeating what the teacher said just to get a few marks. It's FREE, but I don't want it. Now in a humanes or language class, I don't really get a chance to talk besides crapping. Who can tell whether an IR would be successful if they do not know the mindset of people? And all the answers provided by those LAME people are simply economy failing so IR also fail or cannot earn money from locals and stuff. Very lame answers which do not have a deep level of thinking and investigation. If this was to turn into an English exposition, I don't know how many people would be marked down because the teachers says that they are assuming. Even the casinoes in Macau and Vegas aren't really successful because the economy is doing well. The police in Macau is already used to people suiciding and it's not uncommon to see people getting rescued almost immediately after they jump. If it weren't for these people to "sponsor" the casinoes, Macau would have died a long time ago. Hence, if we were to get OP for these lame stuff, might as well abolish the stupid system completely. What is said isn't even convincing enough. Chances are hard to come by, but when one comes, how we make use of it is the key to domination.

Loss of domination

I am already feeling the impact of the loss of domination, in whichever area that I once owned in. This year's SMO results aren't very satisfying for me, and my Jap compo just got below 12/15 for the first time. I do agree that I am slack, but last year I wasn't much better and life was a lot smoother compared to this year other than Gwee Hana screwing me after every Geog test. I still strongly believes that what I am doing is good for myself. If now is not the time to specialise, then when is the time? Furthermore, specialisation means the removal of other stuff because time is limited. Hence, I see myself having 2 Humanes and English. Humanes aren't really a problem, but as for English, I don't find it very useful to me. I don't really want to master English too well, and having such an intensive curriculum for English is simply because Singapore follows the British education system and prepares us for the "top" universities. These so-called "top" universities claims themselves to be globally recognised, but who bothers to not recognise them and on what basis are they ranked top? FYI, "ranked top" suggests the presence of a ranking system, and I don't think such a ranking system is recognised. Furthermore, the amount of information learnt in university aren't gonna be of much use after you graduate, and eventually you would forget. I can guarantee that at least 75% of people go to university for their degrees, and out of these 75%, there is this group of people who go to "top" universities to get the "globally recognised" degrees. As a student, I feel the importance of the "globally recognised" degrees giving me an advantage in finding a job because not many people know such an SOPHISTICATED school of thought. But if I ever become an employer in the future, I really won't know who to hire unless I know them well (situation in China). I am not saying that the we should all adopt the China system. If so, employers can spend time in cafes with the shortlisted candidates for like 1 or 2 weeks. Then, they can get to know who to employ, but then the cafe's profits would have gone up. If I can earn more by working in a cafe, just by preparing coffee and tea, then there is no need for us to study since primary one. I am losing my dominance because of Singapore's screwed education system, which cannot select the right stuff for us to do. Getting penalised for assumptions in an exposition just isn't logical. Yes, you are the teacher, but you are still in no position to penalise me like such. Just like how Grace Chua cannot answer my question of assumed assumptions last year when I got 19/30. A conducive learning environment is important, and I can guarantee all that SG isn't a place for me to study.

A Break

I couldn't be more pissed than failing all the time. Everything is going down the drain. Maybe that got to do with me having a teacher called longang. Longang, everything goes in, nothing comes out, beware of dropping things inside. Haha. That was lame. It would be great if life could be smoother, and it certainly aren't gonna be if I have to abide to all my school rules. In the past, I coped with all the stress because there was a sense of accomplishment at the end, but constant failing is gonna turn you emo, and probably leading to suicide. Of course I won't be crazy enough to do that yet, but I seriously need a break from all those retarded English and IH homework. There was this observation which I made during the e-learning week, which is that neighbourhood school students go home at like 1.30pm. WTF!! I AM FREAKING TIRING MYSELF OUT FOR 12 HOURS A DAY AND PEOPLE OF THE SAME AGE GET TO GO HOME AND SLACK AT 1.30PM. Of course, I can't really blame it on the school. I didn't go to HP because I know that I wouldn't like and would die of such an intense curriculum (doesn't seem to fruitful despite its intensiveness). The problem lies with this new teacher called longang, who likes to involve us in politics, especially Singapore politics. If Singaporeans ever get a say in local politics, the sun would rise from the west, the sun will revolve around the earth, and earth would revolve around the moon. Anyway, why do something that won't do you any good? That's like totally based on imagination, but has got no application in real-life unlike philosophy. SG is an Asian country, and how many Asian countries have English as their core language? Well, if you are expecting us to go to European or North American countries and involve in their politics, then SG government is gonna screw you. There are times when there's a better and easier way to do stuff, and there are times when you need to do things the hard way. SG people don't know how to identify these times.

This is another vent-your-anger-online post. Vent your anger on my tagboard if you disagree.