Monday, February 13, 2017
Sunday, July 24, 2016
La Haine contre mon Université
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Sunday, February 14, 2016
言葉で表せない不安
最近、ある知り合いが独身クラブを卒業した。彼は容姿が平凡で、頭脳明晰でもない。しかし、彼が僕の先に彼女ができたんだ。もちろん、これは意外なことでもない。成績の差に同じく、やる気の差が起因になっている。恋人の出会いと言えば、映画のように男女が奇跡的にお互いに出会うことではない。現実はより複雑だ。まず、誰かがこの変なルールを決めたんだ。男子と女子はまるで捕食者と被食者のようだ。もちろん、このルールに従う必要がない。他の方法で知り合ったカップルもいる。だが、捕食者のところに来る被食者がめったにないことは自然の規律だ。お腹を満たそうとすれば、獲物を探さねばならない。それで、問題が現れた。捕食者として、一方ではやる気満々のやつがいる。他方では僕のような獲物にビビる者もいる。正確に言えば、視線を合わせたらなんとなく強烈な不安を感じる。何かを話そうとするけど、頭が急に空白になって言葉が出ない。前者は先に満腹するだろう。
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Tuesday, August 11, 2015
下一个循环
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Friday, February 28, 2014
It's kinda tragic that when you grow up you tend to read between the lines.
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Sunday, September 8, 2013
Reality is just so damn disappointing, and that's despite the fact that I've already accepted economics.
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Wednesday, August 21, 2013
When will I ever get rid of my inferiority complex?
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Saturday, August 10, 2013
Ardour
There's something that has been bugging after I have left school. Where did my ardour disappear to? Back then, I had to wake up early, attend lessons/CCA, leaving school at 7 and reaching home at 8.30. There were no complaints, just a conviction that everything was worthwhile. In retrospect, some additional things made a significant difference, while others didn't. It's perhaps due to a realization after watching "The Girl in a Pinafore", that I've sacrificed way too much, for a future that I never wanted. Yes, I had my egoism and grabbed whatever opportunities that were placed before me (and weren't given to the potential president scholars), but I now feel that I've been digging into a bottomless pit. There is no end to the amount of academic accolades that one can achieve, but an end to the amount of satisfaction that the achiever obtains. (Law of diminishing marginal returns XD) Perhaps I've been around smart people too often, that I see that people's lives somehow end after education. (Those esteemed gods that make it into the Ivy League somehow end up as teachers)
It is perhaps because I foresee this future that I want to seek a new path in life. I don't want my life to end here. But now that I'm given so much time, and yet still doing so little. Would I ever find something that would revive my ardour that once had such a magnificent blaze?
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